Sometimes, well most times, I can't stand silence. I will fill the void with all kinds of nonsense just so I don't have to listen to the silence. Before covid the United Way was having "Mass Food Distributions". They were giving away lots & lots of food to everyone who showed up. There were no restrictions. Anyone could get a package. And these packages were massive. There were hundreds of people who showed up for these once a month giveaways. We would line up in our cars outside of a warehouse. The wait times were long. About 1 1/2 hrs.
As I don't drive my aid takes me. Sitting in a car for 1 1/2 hrs while inching along a long line gives an incredible amount of silence. But I'm up for the challenge. I would banter on about everything & nothing. I would make observations on the weather, the other cars in line, what I hoped would be in the pkg. I would tell stories about my childhood. We discussed food, crime rates, local gossip. No topic was taboo. (Now you can put your mind back in the gutter) Discussing religion & politics was naturally off limits as that would only start an argument. After inching along for over an hour I finally shut up. My aid asked what was wrong. "I've run out of bs." My aid, who usually sits & listens while I babble without comment pulls out of her purse a pocket calendar & writes something in it. When asked what she was doing she replied "I'm circling the date. Pinkie has run out of things to talk about."
Love you too Barbara.
Does this sound like bipolar
anxious when hearing certain sounds?
this might sound bad some might block me
Anxiety kicking in. Hoping this does not sound like I am whining. Just needed to get it out
Has anyone ever been triggered by a noise, a specific sound that bring out your worse memories 
