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[jdgiant]

I am a 59 year old wife, mother, grandmother who works full time and is excitingly waiting for retirement.

I have suffered from anxiety and depression for most of my life. I had a very tumultuous child hood. It consisted of abandonment, physical, emotional and sexual abuse.

I was married for 7 years to the father of my grown children. He cheated, physically and emotionally abused me and our household was very tumultuous for about 3 years. I have been married to my 2nd husband for 29 years. I have been married to my 2nd husband for 29 years.

i have been self medicating for years. I am really good at having people think that I am just fine when I am hiding so much. I'm not sure how extensive things are here so I will just start with that.

I am looking forward to hearing that I am not alone.

Thank You

[alifran72]

Sweet friend, I am so sorry you are battling anxiety and depression and have for so long. It's really hard isn't it? I, too, have battled anxiety my whole life and went through several periods of severe depression specifically PPD after my 2nd child was born and then many years later when my ex left me after 22 years of marriage. I would like to suggest seeing your medical doctor for an antidepressant. Medication has helped me tremendously through the years. Something else that has been a great help is therapy. Do you have a therapist you could talk with? If not, and you'd like to be connected with a licensed, professional counselor at no cost to you, please let me know and I can connect you with someone. I am sending a huge hug your way right now

[BrainIsFull]

You are not alone! Of course no one shares the exact story as you, but we know how painful it is to be going through emotional turmoil. 💚

[Reading_Rando]

Talking with a therapist is immensely helpful. If you havnt seen one before I know it can be hard to imagine how just talking with someone could change so much but it can. When we say things out loud to someone it makes our feelings and circumstances feel way more concrete and managable. No one deserves to suffer in silence, it's always ok to not be ok.

[Renee52]

You are not alone. You sound like a survivor.

[crowningglory19]

It is so sad what a child has to go thru sometimes and how much it negatively effects the future. I'm so sorry you went thru that and are still dealing with the ramifications of it. All you can do is the best you can do. Just keep on keeping on, and show yourself grace, love yourself well, take care of you the best you know how. Learn better ways to care for you, educate yourself more and more on healing techniques. Take a good multi vitamin you will be surprised how much that helps in giving your body what it needs to deal better. Magnesium is great to calm the mind body and spirit and help you sleep better. Ginseng is great to get rid of those sticky negative thoughts that loop so it heals the emotional scars that can get us in a negative rut. Get outside, soak in some sun without sunscreen so you can get the vitamin D and walk barefoot to get grounded. These things don't cure it all but they help. <3 If you can't afford counsel, many churches offer it free.