Depression lately

[Dancer2020]

I've been having lower back and hip pain for a while. Going to different doctors who aren't sure where it's coming from. Today I'm just so depressed and tired. Why do I have to continue to endure this. A church I've been going to believes in healing. I've been to their healing rooms. So if they believe this and nothing changes for me, I start to think I'm not good enough or I'm not praying the correct way, or God just doesn't like me as much as others. I fall short. I'm really struggling because it's hard to have a conversation with a God you can't see or hear. Life isn't fun right now and hasn't been for over a year. When does it end or get better?

[b1b1b1]

Have you seen an orthopedist. If not you might want to.

[Blueruth]

Lower back pain is caused by depression and stress. I know from experience. There were times I was walking crooked… painful and embarrassing. It used to go out and I would go to the doctor where they would give my Tylenol with codeine. It would be better then it would go out. I was just going in circles. A physical therapist did help me but the most important thing was building core. I have not had back pain in years. Once I did but it was because I took 4 ibuprofen for something else and I over extended. Go to any core based exercise practice (I.e. yoga, Pilates) and you will hear similar “miracle” stories from others. It isn’t a miracle. Doctors are trained to fix it right now. 👎🏽 You have everything you need to fix it. The exercise will help your depression too.

[EuroJoy]

I am so sorry to hear about your pain! I have had strong lower back and right hip pain on and off for quite a few years now, so I can understand a bit. I do believe in the healing power of God through Jesus our Lord, but also know that God allows things sometimes for a reason. His timing may not be our timing. But rest assured I know that He hears me when I cry out to Him. God is not someone who is out to punish us and if we don't get healed, it's because he likes us less. If that were the case then His beloved apostles from the Bible would have had a super, pain free life (which they didn't). Pray that God shows you which doctor to see. Pray that He gives you comfort when you need it most as He knows your limits. I have seen God helping me so many times when I needed the help most. And I have also learnt that sometimes He's allowed pain in my life so I would depend on Him and lean on Him. And this has made me grow closer to God and helped me in developing a close relationship, which has also helped me to understand how much He loves me, which is not based on what I do (or not do). I will pray for your healing so you get relief.

[Dancer2020 in reply to EuroJoy]

I appreciate that. I think I'm scared I'm always going to feel this way and it's not a fun life. Add anxiety and depression and I become a mess.