CONFESSION

Hey you guys ummm I'm an addict and the addictions that I deal with are overwhelming so I'm literally going out on a limb here trying find help and healing through God and hopefully some of you all. I know all of us on this forum have had some really rough times but even in the midst of the darkness I want all of you guys to hang in there. I really want to be clean and turn my life around and I just ask you all who are in Christ Jesus to keep me in your prayers and everybody in your prayers. I've hit rock bottom emotionally and I'm just sick of being here at the bottom feeling depressed and isolated and I really want to see better and brighter days. You know I'm 28 years old and It's time to get it together but eventhough I truly have wanted to change time after time after time I found myself right back where I didn't want to be, but I am confident that God will deliver me and I just ask you all just to keep me encourage. Thanks for listening.

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  • Oh sorry u struggling. I'm struggling to with alcohol been drinking since my teen year's to cope with Anxiety. But now when I drink it makes me feel worse but I still drink

  • Fortunately, God helped me quit drinking. Everytime I think about drinking I think about how sick I Would get when drank. I hated feeling sick anf throwing up all the time and feeling queasy. Just remind yourself of all the negatives about drinking and maybe that will help.

  • Also thanks for your support

  • First of all congratulations on your ability to see you have a problem and the strength to want to change. Rock bottom is a hard place to be I think we all hit rock bottom for several reasons.. I have been searching and trying to heal through my faith now for awhile it's not easy I don't have a drug or drinking problem I have severe depression, anxiety and then some... do you have a church? I know when I am having a bad day or feel like I am losing control I use to turn to church or my pastor day or night they want to help.. or add the Bible app to your phone you don't have to read you can listen it seems to help me sometimes.. good luck on your journey my friend!

  • Good words thank you. Yeah, I have a church but It's hard for me to be vulnerable in front them and let them know what's going on because I don't like the people that I'm around to have pity for me. I don't want to be viewed as the person with a problem. They are all nice and supportive people though.

  • You could try to give your problems to Jesus in prayer. Ask Him for guidance. Meditating on an image of Jesus and repeating a phrase like "Jesus I trust in you," "Jesus I love you," "Jesus remember me" -- that kind of thing.

  • I'm fighting urges right now as we speak but I'm going to listen to a sermon and pray the urges pass.

    This too shall pass.

  • I'm waiting on God to heal me I don't go to church because of my anxiety. I don't do anything I use to like to do. I will pray for u.

  • It took me a long time for me to say I had a problem and I'm alcohol

  • I too struggle with depression. I use alcohol! I trained as a counsellor and really wanted to hit that rock bottom like others around me because they seemed to hit it then start building up and their progress after that was good. I just waver around close to the bottom.

    Don't beat your self up when you use it's a habit formed and will take time to break the cycle. Mindfulness Meditation is good for some, me included whenever I let it. Exercise even walking is good. Distractions are good but will never get rid of the underlying issues. Therapy is the way now or one day when you build yourself up a bit with some distractions. This will take the power from what makes you so low.

    You are being honest about it that is a positive and big step in the right direction. I need to take some of my own advice and kick my butt back to counselling, it's not easy work but will release the emotion and feelings that have us both stuck in the sinking sand. Good luck!💕

  • Thank you meditation sounds helpful. I went to see some counselors and didn't good experiences ....maybe I'll go back though.

  • Welcome to the forum.

    Have you tried Alcoholics Anonymous (AA)? It is an international mutual aid fellowship founded in 1935 by Bill Wilson and Dr. Bob Smith in Akron, Ohio. AA's stated "primary purpose" is to help alcoholics "stay sober and help other alcoholics achieve sobriety. With other early members, Bill Wilson and Bob Smith developed AA's Twelve Step program of spiritual and character development. AA's initial Twelve Traditions were introduced in 1946 to help the fellowship be stable and unified while disengaged from "outside issues" and influences.

    The Traditions recommend that members and groups remain anonymous in public media, altruistically help other alcoholics, and avoid official affiliations with other organizations. They also advise against dogma and coercive hierarchies.

    Narcotics Anonymous have adopted and adapted the Twelve Steps and the Twelve Traditions to their respective primary purposes.

    According to AA's 2014 membership survey, 27% of members have been sober less than one year, 24% have 1–5 years sober, 13% have 5–10 years, 14% have 10–20 years, and 22% have more than 20 years sober. Studies of AA's efficacy have produced inconsistent results. While some studies have suggested an association between AA attendance and increased abstinence or other positive outcomes other studies have not.

    The first female member, Florence Rankin, joined AA in March 1937 and the first non-Protestant member, a Roman Catholic, joined in 1939. The first Black AA group was established in 1945 in Washington DC by Jim S., an African American physician from Virginia. AA membership has since spread internationally "across diverse cultures holding different beliefs and values", including geopolitical areas resistant to grassroots movements. Close to 2 million people worldwide are members of AA as of 2016.

    AA's name is derived from its first book, informally called "The Big Book", originally titled Alcoholics Anonymous: The Story of How More Than One Hundred Men Have Recovered From Alcoholism.

    My friend Addie found AA helpful to her in addition to visits to her psychologist and medication.

    Addie often quotes Anthony Robbins who said, : the secret of success is learning how to use pain and pleasure instead of having pain and pleasure use you. If you do that, you are in control of your life. If you don't, life controls you."

    All the best.

  • Yeah, a lot of people have suggested that I seek support groups for help. Thanks.

  • I agree w blackcat, you should really consider an annonymous 12 step program. They have a better success rate than most options. There is a program for just about every addiction . Google it and get details on their websites. Most have local meetings and some even have telephone conference meetings for convenience and additional support. If shame is a block, try a phone meeting to sample. I guarantee you will hear your story. You are not alone. Nothing to fear. Get help Good luck.

  • Thanks, yeah I need to get in a program.

  • Admitting you have a problem is a big deal. Take advantage while you are out of denial and go deeper toward recovery. It's hard to face but it will improve your life tremendously. Good luck

  • God bless you

  • You mention you have addictions. You may want to go to a NA (Narcotic Anonymous) which relies on a higher power or God in the way each individual member believes. I wish you the best in your recovery.

  • Thanks so much for your help. God bless.

  • I hope that your struggle gets easier and that your faith helps you through. You are trying and that is what matters.

    Best wishes and best luck you'll do great

  • Thanks for the encouraging words :)

  • Prayers for all of you :) I'm sorry that you've been suffering. God is with you!

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