hope

[jorgeRG]

I started suffering from anxiety and depression a year ago, in July I had a crisis that affected my physical health, and today I am fighting every day to overcome this state of mind that plunges into a dark room with no way out.

[Jenna_Smith]

Well for me this scared and anxious feeling started in the same way because of one incident in my life. It wasn't a physical injury but something more of an emotional trigger. Then everything started falling apart one after the other. At times I have been in such bad mental conditions that I have cried myself to sleep everyday for months. But better times do come, I am a lot better now, cannot say completely but it does change. So hold on and try to push through those hard times and trust me its ok to feel all of this, it means that you are a human capable of feeling every emotion which is a sign of strength. Lots of love and courage to you.Keep smiling!

Keep Shining!

[JEubanks]

I can understand how you feel. I started feeling alone even while laying in bed beside my fiancé. I feel alone everywhere. I get angry for no reason and lash out at people. I immediately regret and apologize but it’s too late. I am sorry you are going through this. It’s like a never ending cycle. I am conscious of my anger but unable to stop what comes out. I have reached out to our local priest. I also scheduled an appt with a psychiatrist. You’re not alone. And the darkness holds light even when we can’t see it.

[Jenna_Smith in reply to JEubanks]

Somehow everything you said has been on my mind for a very long time but I just did not seem to be able to put it in words. Feeling alone even while being with someone, getting angry lashing out, feeling sorry later, not understanding what makes me angry at that point of time. I have been experiencing exactly the same things. Adding to this is my feeling of guilt because getting angry on the person that loves me so much and still continues to do so even after my irrational and rude behavior. its just heartbreaking, but I cannot seem to have any control over it.

[JEubanks in reply to Jenna_Smith]

Unfortunately I think it has destroyed my relationship beyond repair. I pray that God doesn’t let this happen. I love him so much. I hate that I have made him cry. Hurt him so bad. I sought help. I start on meds as soon as they arrive. He asked me to call his PCP and get him back on his depression meds. But if I am not there not sure he will even take them as I have always been the one to remind him to take his meds. Last night made me angry but I didn’t lash out. He kinda blamed me for him having to eat pizza. He said you should come over and fix me dinner. ????? I am good enough to cook you dinner but not be there all the time. I have decided to start to rebuild my life and if he wakes up and realizes what he is in jeopardy of loosing he can come build it with me. He says I am the most wonderful woman he has ever met. Then tell me why you want me but don’t want me??? I know I have hurt him and I am making a big leap to fix my issues. What Covid has done to me without actually catching it is heartbreaking. I never ever have been someone to hurt people.

[Melancholy12]

Depression and anxiety are so horrific. I know those feelings well. As difficult as it is do one thing a day to feel like you accomplished something - wash a dirty dish - dust a piece of furniture- I’ve been there - in the depths of hell. Sometimes one bright change can uplift us. All the best to u.