how do i get this away?

[mydog56]

how can i stop my depression and stress . it has been bugging me for all this days weeks and weekend , cause i have a crush on a boy at my school and he goes to the same school as me , i am 16 years old he is almost turning 19 years old, and he has a crush on me , and i am starting to get these strong feelings cause of that and i do not know what to do, i go to the same bus as he goes on in the morning and after school, and the crazyness does not stop, i get the anxiety too now, and it is a bad feeling in my stomach too, and it is not narmal, nobody in my school is helping me , not giving me ice or anything to help with all of this stuff that are bad inside of me and inside these feelings that i have, begins in mornings nights and daylights and after i eat something, when i eat something it bugs me too, when i drink water it bugs me too, and it gets me sad everytime, it is really hard for me durning these days , you know, it is not fun , and i feel like i am afraid to talk to the boy everytime, and all of that. i am afraid to talk to his friends and my friends, and i am afraid of them bullying me and him, his friends are bullying him and he stopped it when i told him how to stop it and he said that his friends are still doing it to him, and i said well i wish i could help you but i do not have classes with you, last year we had classes and his friends bullied me , and it is not stopping now, i am getting alot of thoughts , lots of mind changing in me , and it thinks about my crush, and i feel like i am shy on him and everyone near my school, and sometimes my friends fight on me and tell everyone that i have my crush next to me and lots of people bully me. and i do not know how to stop all of this on me and he does nothing to help me, but he wish's you know. and lots of times , i will have this anxiety , in my body, and everywhere, also i have thoughts like i want to kill myself right now, and i wish i was not here right now, you know. and i have lots of anxiety about when is my crush gonna text me when is he gonna text me and things like is he just getting my power , and why does he not tell me if he does not have feelings for me, you know, i have been having things like am i gonna get cancer, and all of that and i have been having bad things happening to me and my grandpa passed away, and after that, i do not know what to do, cause i have butterflies in my stomach and i am too shy and all of that and i hit my foot in the wall and it hurts everything, and i never had hited my foot, you know when i was a baby i never did anything like that.

[MoonDreaming]

Hey there, I'm sorry you are going through all that. Depression is hard to deal with, I suffer from Depression, anxiety, phobias, panic attacks and social anxiety. What has helped me is therapy. You are 16? Does your school have a therapist or a counselor you can talk too? Having a journal helps to put things in perspective. Writing down everything and then maybe putting things that you think can help those situations right after. This is a great place to get support, but I think because of your age you can get help from school too.

[mydog56 in reply to MoonDreaming]

yeah , no my school does not have one , but yes i am 16 years old, and i get anxiety depression, i get a bippolor diorder, and more and it is tough to go through cause then you get worried and it is like okay why am i having this? and this pain is so not good, and why am i having these bad stuff happening to me you know, and we have those as girls you know, some boys are not having that, some of us that go through that is very tough to handle the pain even my age i go through lots and i am not sure what is happening and what to do cause this pain is insine you know, what can i do in my journal ? what kind of things.