Triggered

[melbrown]

Hi all. It's been awhile since I've last posted... This past year has been tough, as has it been for most... I try to tell myself I have lots to be grateful for. Still hard. I'm finding myself triggered a lot lately... it's about getting the vaccine. I have a very difficult time with doctors & needles are the toughest thing. They bring me right back to a horrible moment that happened in my childhood. I know I should get the Covid vaccine (not eligible yet), but my inner child is freaked out. It's hard to avoid being triggered by this... the vaccine is all everyone is talking about, then there's seeing people get it on the news. My husband is getting his today. He keeps trying to see if I can get mine- he got a tip on how I can. Last night I asked for a break from it... I was already feeling nauseous & on edge. He just got upset... saying I have to get it... that I can't see anyone if I don't (because don't want to risk their health) & I need to get over it. It hurts because he doesn't get it. I don't know what to do...

[Sillysausage234]

Hiya mel ....if it helps I had my first shot and honestly didn’t feel a thing the needle is ultra fine ....just look away.....will all be over soon 🌞...ps heard from hope 234 😀

[melbrown in reply to Sillysausage234]

Hey Alan. Was hoping you got it. Don't want you getting sick 💛How's the beautiful baker Hope?I've heard the needle is super tiny... & I'm definitely not watching. 😖

[Sillysausage234 in reply to melbrown]

Think she’s ok mel ....thanks for your concern,...you will be ok we’ll soon be saying remember that covid 19 ....it’ll get splattered soon 😊

[blacklabs]

Hi, the AstraZeneca is the smallest needle I have ever seen it is the smallest amount of liquid 0,5 hardly anything. . It hardly goes in it is tiny about a second in the skin in fact one deep breath and its gone. I have had worse pin pricks. When you go for the vaccine tell them that your nervous they will understand. Hope this helps you.

[melbrown in reply to blacklabs]

Thank you so much blacklabs. I might just tell them I'm nervous. The last time I got blood work done, I was truthful with the gentleman who checked me in. He was beyond nice- got me right in, explained to the nurse my situation & they both did everything in their power to make it a less stressful event. He even stayed in there with me. My therapist & I are trying to get me prepared... still hard. Thanks again & hope you are doing well.

[Dolphin14]

Hi Mel

Definitely let the staff know your anxieties. They should offer you some emotional support. Can someone go with you so you are not alone?

Maybe it's better to look at it as a choice as opposed to feeling like you are being forced to do it?

Also remind your little girl that she is not alone. That you are there to help her get through this. Whatever happened when she was young she did not have you to support her.

Ask her what she needed back then, give her what she needs to get through this.

❤️🐬

[melbrown in reply to Dolphin14]

Thanks Dolphin14 for all the suggestions. My therapist & I have been trying to prepare me, unfortunately there are many unknowns. The place my husband got his only allowed people who had appointments in the building. We are hoping if it's there that my brother has same appointment. If I'm able to get it at a pharmacy or a drive in site will definitely have someone with me. I'm also thinking of bringing a small stuffed animal to help. I'm trying to focus on the good things the vaccine will mean. A vacation with my friends. Hugs from those I love. And countless things I've missed this past year. I hope you are doing well Dolphin14 💗 🫂

[Dolphin14 in reply to melbrown]

Hi Mel

Yes focus on what will come from the vaccine. So much has been lost. It will be so good to have some enjoyment back in your life.

I'm doing a lot of inner child work with one of my therapists. So those are some of the things she tells me to work on.

Absolutely bring something that gives you a sense of security. Even look at some pictures of those people you want to see and hold.

Please let us know how you make out.

I am doing well. Thank you for asking. I have been helping out in vaccine clinics and you are not alone in your fears. Stay focused on why you are doing it.

I will be thinking of you

❤️🐬

[pam4him]

I can see it's a difficult situation for you. Have you explained the traumatic event to him? If you haven't shared, perhaps he would be more understanding, and even sit with you, distract you while you get the vaccine. I know sharing is scary, but sometimes letting our SO know we truly need them helps them to be a little more sympathetic. If it's too hard to talk, maybe write it in a note to him. Communication is key to any relationship and I encourage you to talk with him. Prayers for peace, strength, guidance and wisdom.

[melbrown in reply to pam4him]

Hi Pam4him. Yes, my husband is aware of my trauma. I think it's hard for him to fully understand it... Yes I'm safe now, but the trauma from my childhood is still with me. It's a process I'm working on. Thank you for for your support. 💛

[kenster1]

hi Mel cant stand needles myself and when I get a jag I just focus on something in the room and zone in on it and before you know it it`s done.my 1st jag is tomorrow.

[Agora1 in reply to kenster1]

Good Luck kenster1... you'll be okay my friend xx

[kenster1 in reply to Agora1]

thank you yeah all over and done with in a second Agora nearly 4 hours ago I got it Astrazeneca it was don`t feel much different.

[melbrown in reply to kenster1]

Thanks for the support Ken. Glad yours went easy. Hope you are doing well. 💛