Disgusted with my self

[Grcjsmn]

when I have to leave my home to go to the grocery store or any other place I always have to have chewing gumbo feel less anxious. I feel like if I’m around people a crowded place it makes me breath harder and makes my stomach turn. I don’t feel In control of my own body. It makes me feel like I have to go to the bathroom. Why the hell does my body have to act this way. This is t how I used to be. I’m sometimes disgusted with my self.

[Tidus]

It's all ok to feel that way. Thank you for sharing and thank you for being here. I was diagnosed with MDD Major Depressive Disorder and GAD General Anxiety Disorder so basically there is no particular object or thing just everything in general. I think my life is in danger almost at all times and my paranoia is close to extreme. I think everyone is going to bring me harm and that might be another diagnosis but that's why I'm seeking help. But there are a few options, you can do breathing exercises and different techniques to help you during your panic attacks or you can get prescribed medicine so before you leave your house your panic attacks can be more controllable. I think we all have gotten some social anxiety because of COVID-19 to some degree, but I am the same way I don't like crowds and I think that is the more sensible side of us speaking lol. My chest tightens and I just want to bolt and my throat gets tight like I can hardly breathe. While on medication you might feel it but it feels like its being restrained and you almost like recognize when its coming to stuff it down or deal with it in a healthy way and talk yourself through but it all happens within seconds. Hope this helps! You are not alone!

[lillyofthevalley37]

Hi there and welcome , sorry to hear about your struggle with anxiety but please don't be disgusted with yourself as it's not your fault you have to be a friend to yourself ? if chewing gum helps that's a good thing , I'm not an expert on anxiety but plenty of people on here are very knowledgeable so please stick around

[casual_nihilist]

I feel the same way

I’ll stick around

[Cookie101]

Firstly, please don't feel disgusted with yourself. Of all the things that people sometimes do, it's hardly the worst thing in the world.

With regards to the chewing gum, do you eat it often? Chewing gum can affect your digestion if you eat it regularly. It could potentially be exacerbating your stomach issues.

A lot of Autistic people suffer from sensory issues so there are things you can buy which you can chew on if that helps. One company that I know of is called Chewigem. I'm sure there are others. That might be healthier for you in the long run. chewigem.co.uk/

Are you speaking with a counsellor about your anxiety? They can help you to understand what the root cause of it might be. Perhaps help you to establish some other ways of coping.

[Grcjsmn in reply to Cookie101]

I just chew the gum and for a while. And then I throw it away. I feel like it helps with my anxiety. I’m not autistic but I ha e a 4 abs a half year old daughter that is.

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Welcome to this amazing group of people. I have heard many say that, so u are not alone. I generally don't like the public but I think if you can stick around u will find ways to deal with ur problem. Atleast for now u can chew that gum, it a saver. Welcome again

[Queen_royal]

I’m the same way it’s hard. Some of the things I have done since I don’t have medication at the moment to ease those problems is go to the stores or most places early in the morning when they first open it’s helped me a lot not too many ppl I can be in and out 😊

[Lovesdolls]

I also have troubles when going out to the store....or maybe I should say 'used' to. With Covid around I am taking advantage of delivery or curbside pickup. It is a blessing in disguise I guess so I don't have as many uneasy trips. First, I chew gum all the time. I will chew it, then 'park' it in my cheek so to say. The reason I chew gum is because I used to smoke years ago, and it always helped afterward and I still like having something. I figure gum is better than smoking. Second, I see where others have mentioned about going into the store and panic and sweat. (I think Lesstheanone) mentioned this. When I did have to shop I would do it as quickly as I could, then sweat like crazy when I got to the checkout. Even if I did the self checkout register. I don't know what causes it, but my Mom had the same thing. One time when I was in Target, I was having this happen as I was waiting for my daughter to finish trying on clothes, and was sitting on the edge of a display. I guess I looked pretty bad because a man came over and asked me if I was OK. I didn't realize how I appeared to others. I sure wish I could overcome this. Also, it sure is hard when sweating wearing a mask. I wore a disposable mask way back at the start of the pandemic and went to the store, and that mask just disintegrated in my mouth. Arrrghh. Now I wear a cloth one and it is better, but I sweat so much. So, as I mentioned before, the delivery or pickup makes it easier for me. Ok, I've talked too much. I hope everyone has a better day. Keep breathing deeply and try to concentrate on that. Peace to all.

[mehrohail]

Dear, Be mindful of what is really happening. When you understand that anxiety is outside energy that is sabotaging your thoughts, in awareness you can begin to heal.

It is an emotion that brings anxious thoughts to your mind and you identify these thoughts you become anxious. You don't need to feel like that. If you look beyond the pills, you’ll discover several other ways of permanently coping with anxiety. ezcareclinic.com/methods-to... Best wishes to you.

[Breath135]

Hi,I think I read that you haven’t always been this way? I hear you and can emphasize.

If I read that correctly, has something changed in your life? Big or small.

If so, try to recognize that for what it is and believe it or not, that will b your number one step in your path to healing.

We can look at it like a “growing pain”although, no icing on the cake here...

a sucky & hard “growing pain” that has 3 magic words to help along along the way...

Patience, Self-Compassion & Perseverance.

Wishing you well!!