Re starting therapy

[Chique]

I'm new to this so I guess I'll just start...

Last year about a month after Michigan shut down due to the pandemic, I was hospitalized for a series of seizures, this was the first time I've every had a seizure too. I remember waking up in the hospital not knowing where I was, what happened to get me in the hospital, that I was married or had even moved from where my family was living. For some reason at some point I remembered there was a pandemic but nothing else that was current.

My husband and my parents would explain to me what had happened to me, where I was and would tell me everything was okay, multiple times through out the day sometimes just a few minuets later after just telling me. We were unsure even if my memory was going to come back or even If I was going to be able to retain information given to me after a short time.

We had found out after the the all of my tests in the hospital that I had brain swelling in mainly around my hippocampus which was causing my seizures and my memory loss. I was lucky enough not to have had covid which they were afraid I had because they had seen a similar case like mine that was caused by covid.

After a few days my swelling was starting to come down, I was not having any seizures anymore at that point and they were just waiting on my covid test to come back so my doctor sent me home to rest.

As of today I am seizure free for about 10 months and my brain swelling continues to go down. Even though I am physically getting better, I am still dealing with the after math of my emotions for being in the hospital alone and not knowing what was going on.

I have always dealt with Anxiety and Depression but, It started getting worse after the hospital and I was shortly diagnosed with ptsd from the events that had been going on. I am still struggling to "control" my emotions and worries almost a year later and this pandemic hasn't been helping at all.

I started therapy a few months after being in the hospital and it has been helping me but I know I still need a little more support so I decided to go to what I do best which I writing out how I feel and my therapist told me about websites like this to have more support.

So i guess heres to trying something new to help me heal!

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Hi and welcome to this amazing site of amazing people. One thing I will tell u is, ur therapist was not wrong. U have come to the best community. We are happy to have u here. There is lot of support and respect in this community. I am however sorry to hear what happened to you. I can not imagine what it would be like to not know anything, I bet it like starting afresh at old age, not that you are old. I seriously do sympathize with ur situation. I am happy though you are with a group of people who understand what you are goin thru and we really do. Welcome again.

[Tidus]

Welcome! We are glad to have you and so glad you are currently seizure free! It's ok to write about your bad days and your good days as well! We are here so you can understand you are NOT alone. It seems from your writing you just want to test the waters but please write anything you feel, it doesn't have to be a particular reason why you might feel bad that day or even good lol Hope to see more posts!

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Hello and welcome! I can only imagine how frightening that experience was for you! I had a kind of similar experience when I was in my 20’s. The amnesia was from a pretty bad car accident. However waking up alone in an emergency room and not knowing why you are there is frightening for any reason. It only took me three weeks to recover and you will fully recover too, sounds like you are well on your way. One day it will only be a memory like it now is for me. ❤️