Iv'e been in recovery for almost ten years and it took me until TODAY to realize I am dependant on male attention to not feel lonely. Not all the time, and not just any male. But the dependancy is there. It's not destructive, but I view myself as being very independant soooooo....now I have to process this wildly conflicting information about my identity. I'd love to hear everyone's thoughts on this, finding validation through external sources in very common, and not bad at all.
Thats my dog Bella in the photograph. I love her ^_^