Life sentence

[Reader2021]

Does anyone else feel like depression and anxiety are life sentences. There are so many times I feel like I’m stuck with this. I feel as though I’m treatment resistant. I max out every antidepressant I get put on. They won’t give me stronger anxiety meds because of suicidal ideation. I hate having depression. I try to get people to understand I’m not choosing this. Do they really think I (we) enjoy feeling like this? It sucks!

[SazzyNubz77]

I know exactly how you feel. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for over 20 years I’m 43 so most of my life. I’ve been on every medication available. I feel like I’m useless and can’t be productive in life because my mental health always pulls me down. And my anxiety stops me from doing even the smallest of things making phone calls..going to see friends and people think that you can’t be bothered or don’t care and they are not ready to listen or they don’t understand. It’s very difficult and you end up feeling so alone nobody wants to feel like crap every day. It definitely sucks!! You’re not alone. xx

[Hidden]

It really sucks. How I wish it was curable. Is it? I don't know but with my case I don't think it will ever go away. One thing I have learnt is that I need to accept it and manage it. I do the things that needs to be done in order to keep it under my control because if I don't do those thing, it will overpower me. Friend, I think we need to just accept this and do what we have to do. May I ask tho, why are they not giving u stronger meds? When suicide thoughts creeps in, it like a curse but I make sure I continue with those things that needs to be done. We have your back here friend, let keep doing what we need to do together, after all this is why we are here in this site to cry together, scream together and do what have to be done together.

[Reader2021 in reply to Hidden]

I seem to max out my dosage on every med they try. I’m just tired. Tired of trying and fighting this illness.

[Hidden in reply to Reader2021]

At least u are not alone. We are all suffering with u. Let keep pushing on

[Goldqueen20]

Hi I know how you feel it’s horrible here for a chat

[pink318]

Hi Reader,

I’m so sorry that you feel this way. One of my sisters was diagnosed with anxiety, she refused medication and it was hard for me to see her struggling.

Her support group has a big impact on her mood. Since she regularly attends the meeting, her mood improved. She meets them once a week online. I also send her messages almost everyday just to let her know that she’s not alone.

Continue to share. You're not alone, we are here for you. Online support groups like this can help you not to feel alone and less lonely. I hope you will find comfort here. God bless.

[Scalir]

Completely relate to how you're feeling - you're definitely not alone! In addition to the medications, have you tried other solutions? Ie the most commonly recommended ones - exercise, meditation, yoga, etc. ?

[Lightatendotunnel]

I've had life long as well. I do exercise, think of small blessings and accomplishments. I've been trying yoga and meditation for a while, I know they help but I haven't been regular at them. Prayers for u.

[Hidden]

Filling my life with healthy activities, when I feel up to it but more importantly when I don't. has helped me tremendously. Sometimes it only gives me a few extra days a month when I am better than other days, but I try to build on that. Any kind of art or craft activity, music lessons, yoga, weight lifting even small weights, drawing etc give a sense of accomplishment and will be a natural way to feel good if even for awhile. I took up classical guitar a few months ago as well as playing folk music, and am learning to read standard music notation. Sometimes it is very hard to concentrate but days on down the road I am glad for my activities. I live in a very unfriendly neighborhood so is hard to make friends but I try to extend an olive branch when it feels safe to do so...🌸

[LulaLaRocca]

I understand completely

[Kitten0613]

I agree with you 100 percent

[Kitten0613]

I’m going through a really bad time right now

[Kitten0613]

Everything you said is the same I’m going through and with the medications too all my medications maxed out in dosage and I’m still a basket case I don’t know what to do and feel like no one understands or cares

[samack in reply to Kitten0613]

Kitten I'm with you as I have to try an umpteenth new med I have been non functioning since 2015. I think about how no one understands and due to length of time t think I'm choosing this path. I really want to leave this world if this doesn't resolve. I cant live the rest of my life this way. Just to keep your heart beating? I accept some lifelong depression but not like this.Hopefully daylight will come for us.

[samack]

life sentence awaiting a retrial. What did I do to deserve this? Give me another chance.