Feeling I am toxic

A lot of people struggle with toxic people in their lives. Although I deal with a super toxic narcisstic dad, I am dealing with my own really weird toxicity and it sucks. Has anyone dealt with something like THIS, their own toxicity?

[Indiegal]

I have felt that way for awhile now. I've been very unhappy at my job, and without almost no social life, my issues consumed me and turned me into someone I didn't like and I know others were sick of too and seemed to avoid. I'm constantly complaining and negative and pissed off all the time. I finally got a new job which I start in a week. Hoping that helps me be the person I used to be. I'm already starting to feel like it is though. I'm not sure your situation, but I couldn't figure out any way around it other than removing what was making me so unhappy. Well, anytime I had some kind of outlet like talking with my book club group it helped temporarily, but it all came back when I was back at work. I'm happy to chat if you want to share more details about what's going on with you.

[Hidden in reply to Indiegal]

Thank you! Good luck at your new job!

[Indiegal in reply to Hidden]

Thank you!

[BigHam]

Yes I have. If we examine the reasons for our conditions we will eventually look inwards & why should we expect it to be perfect when others are not. In my experience realising and accepting it is paramount. Only then can we effect change. Don't be shy look at yourself warts and all. Better to know & take strength realising you know yourself better than anyone else. Then choose the toxics you believe you can clean and do them one at a time. Often fixing one will improve others. For example if I try to stop talking about myself, I will listen to others better. This will benefit others and myself. If I try to be positive, then I will make others feel better. Which will make me feel better. No one is perfect. Don't beat yourself up. That does not help. Make small changes. In time big changes will follow. You've got this x

[Hidden in reply to BigHam]

Thank you for your wisdom, I am trying to apply your ideas in my life. For example, I wrote down all the limitations I could think of in my life last night. Now i hope i can have the courage to look at them.

[BigHam in reply to Hidden]

You have. Can't change without knowing what it is you want to change. List the positives too, regardless of size, I'm sure there many you've forgotten. Plus even listing and acknowledging what feels negative is in itself a positive process. Be strong. You can do it!

[Hidden]

Who doesn't friend? I have never met anyone without but the beautiful thing I love about you is that you not only recognize toxity in others but in you as well. Do u know how difficult it is to see bad in ourselves? That my friend takes wisdom. Okay the first step you have dealt with which is recognizing that but then comes theeee most difficult part which is doing something about it. Guese what, u struck something to me, I am now dealing with my toxicity in me so that you won't be alone dealing with yours. Let start with our different demons.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you and let's tackle these demons DOWN!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I jive with that👍👍