i am going through severe recurrence of my depression. i have complex ptsd, and much more. have 4 girls and struggling with being a mom for them. every time my symptoms of anger, apathy, fatigue, irritability, hopelessness , numbness, dissociation etc. are coming back - i fell more weak and more weak. last over 3 years i was changing psychiatrist, medications. therapy is my second life. tried meditation, crochet, painting. and again i came back to this point- i would prefer to disappear.
thank you that i know that somewhere there maybe somebody has similar story.
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I lived through adverse childhood experiences. I thought I had left all that behind until my daughter was born. It brought up so many things on a subconscious level. I’ve been struggling ever since (4 years). PTSD, anxiety, depression, OCD.
I’m thankful you have your girls and a husband who is trying to understand. ❤️
Hi. I know how you feel. I know where you are coming from. Negative experiences of our lives can create an inner turmoil which creates a very critical part of self. In other words we turn on ourselves-we become our worst enemy. And that critical voice is not who you are. Seperate yourself. Think. You have control of your thoughts and emotions. Give yourself a chance to make the changes. It's possible.
You're welcome. This is a great community. We are here to help
I see more and more mothers getting depressed after they have kids. Postpartum depression , my hypothesis is that the baby requires so much nutrients from the mother that the mother can be left out resulting in deficiencies and depression. We are already not getting enough enough nutrients in the western diet so I can see why this could happen. Any thoughts about that?
Welcome Anna,So very happy that you're now a part of our caring, supportive, compassionate and wise family.
You are most certainly not alone. Someone is always here
You've taken a big step by reaching out to an on-line community. That wonderful!!
I can relate to some of the things you've shared. Hope that your life will begin to include optimism, friendship, and support.
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Welcome to the group. Believe me we understand very well what you are going through. The things u have mentioned in ur list happens to all of us and each day is different from the other. So people who don't understand this feel we are overbearing. This site was brought into effect for exactly that. When those episodes take over we can scream, shout and cry and believe we won't judge because we know. I am afraid that you have kids and kids won't understand what and why but also I love that you mention u don't want to be a bad mom. As long as you keep doing what has to be done and getting the support, you will be fine. Again, welcome to the group.
Welcome to the community! Glad you added us to your arsenal. Healing from depression is like putting a jigsaw puzzle together. I’ve found this group to be a key piece of the puzzle.....
Welcome to this group Anna. You can share and be understood because we get it. It is a safe place. I had postpartum depression with all 3 of my children. My husband was no support and I had to reach out for help. I have pTSD, and severe depression. I was always afraid I wasn’t good enough because that is what I got from my father, sister and husband. My mom was afraid of her husband. You have a disease that you didn’t cause, can’t control and can’t cure. It is healthy to ask for help when we are sick from people who support us. 1.Good Psychologist 2 Good Psychiatrist. 3. Support group ( like this one). Can your take time for an hr (after the kids are in bed) to do something you like to do? soak in the tub, read, do a craft, color. Something you like to do. How old are your children? I know with COVID it is extra hard but we will figure something out together. Welcome aboard Anna
Hi. I've been listening to Dr. Tracey Marks and Dr. Daniel Fox and it helps to take notes. Can you take a break for a little while and go out.? Maybe ask your doctor to tweek your meds or try a different one. Maybe setting smaller goals will help.
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