Im looking for advice, people to chat with and im trying to get onto disability.

[Mardook]

I feel very alone. Im 41 and iv been in a relationship for 14 years. The whole time i have been struggling with ptsd, anxiety, anger issues and several other things that pop up when im sick or stressed. Iv put my girlfriend threw so much. It seems like every time i make progress 2-3 steps forward something happens to slingshot me to -5. I trie so hard to do good and stay busy. Now my girlfriend tells me after so may threats that she is putting space and wants me to just fix me and work on me. At the same time telling me even after 14 years and me fixing myself she dosent know if this is what she wants. I have no friends and all my family is dead or dosent talk to me. She has many friends and all her family. Im not even sure how to find the info to get myself on disability because i cant work a normal job. I live in Monterey ca, if anyone who reads this know of any good low cost clinics or therapist please let me know.

[Agora1]

Hi Mardook, I'm sorry you are struggling with many mental health issues. It can be very wearing on a partner for sure. I agree with your gf in that there comes a time we need to work on ourselves. Get ourselves together before we can share our life with someone.

I'm concerned about your saying that after so many threats, she want some space. It sounds

like she may need the time herself in seeing what she wants and needs as well.

I'm from Chicago so I'm not sure what's available in low cost therapy in California but I do know that there is help available in receiving disability by going through an attorney.

An attorney who specializes in getting disability benefits for some by taking a cut of the settlement. You pay nothing if they don't win for you.

I wish you well and am glad you are with us. xx