Mine comes from extreme guilt. Find it very very hard to distinguish what I should feel bad for and what I shouldn’t feel bad for. I’m told I’m a good person, Ive never intentionally hurt anyone,i overthink everything I say and do . I’ve never been told I’m not nice , so Im sure it’s not that , I’m not rude or anything. It’s very intense and there most of the time , even when I’m happy it doesn’t take much for those thoughts to bring me down . Like ; what if I’m acting silly ? Or what i just said didn’t make sense ? Or did I respond properly to someone’s needs ? I always felt different , I have very little confidence in myself.... I gave up on my own opinions most of the time years ago !!! I ended up in a very abusive marriage but it happened so slow and his words were so clever that I was so so confused in the end . I’m not a stupid person so how did I end up in such an awful situation. The fact that my children witnessed a lot of it haunts me day in day out , the guilt is killing me. It was mostly psychological abuse , so I thought I was just being weak or a bit of a sook . I still can’t shake it . It was so awful I can’t even talk to counsellors about it . How could I be so stupid , how did I allow this to happen. Praise god he left me , and has never had much interest in our children so he’s not around anymore , just the occasional text but it’s ok . The words he used against me plays over and over in my mind . My beautiful amazing children are everything to me , they’re my world , even though they’re grown 😆. Sorry this is so personal but this is where my anxiety comes from . It dosnt start with a panic attack out of the blue , my thoughts wonder or maybe something triggers it then I get that deep sinking feeling that I’m just a really bad person and that’s that . Please feel free to share , I don’t have much advice but can listen and please know that I understand what anxiety feels like . ❤️
Does anyone know where there anxiety ... - Anxiety and Depre...
Does anyone know where there anxiety comes from?
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Hey!First of all, I am so very sorry for what you have endured.
Second of all, thanks for trusting us enough to share. I hear a lot of emotional pain. I have never been in this situation (thank God) so I won't say much. I'll just say that a therapist might be able to help you through those feelings. A good therapist would help you process the hurt instead of laying blame on you.
Why do bad things happen to good people? That is one of the big philosophical questions. I can tell you that it has nothing to do with stupidity, that's for sure. My pastor would say (and has said) that free will is a factor.
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Thankyou for reply 😁. I did sort of start domestic violence counseling, because of the fact that I shut down with other counselors , and I’m aware of that , but then covid hit so it that one session it was all about getting the necessary information, and can’t go back just yet . I have a great pastor too and wonderful church family. I hang on to the though that god can forgive anyone, that keeps me going. Am looking forward to further healing. Just not there yet 😄🌤
Yes, covid-19 has turned our lives upside down, that's for sure. I'm glad you have a good pastor and church family! That's so important! I always look forward to church activities (which are all online now). I honestly don't know what we'd do without Zoom!
You're welcome😊
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Im not great with technology at all , surprised I’m even on here 😄, so didn’t follow through with the zoom thing . For me personally, lock down was amazing. I was thoroughly emotionally exhausted so I wasn’t that upset when work said it’s ilegal for me to go in hahahaha . And lots of other pressures so it was a break for me. Feel awful for everyone else though . And very happy to back in my church family, they’re truly trustworthy people who always have my best intentions at heart. So good to have that isn’t it !!!!
Hey, you're fine. I was just messing with you.Omg yes, it sure is!
For some people lockdowm is fine! To each his own. My husband loves his home office. Now, does that mean I love it? We have an Hdmi cable that he uses to project his spreadsheets onto the TV. In other words, I can't enjoy my tv shows. He's hijacked my TV! But I'm fine with it. It just means I can go to the gym more. There's only one problem with that: the gyms are closed. It means I can go to the shops more. There's only one....well, you get the gist. At least I can go for walks🙂
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😆I know you were messing around but I’m seriously that behind . Not Even on Facebook hahahah . Know the feeling, my son kept pinching the tv to play Xbox , for hrs .
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Ohhh thanx Minniemouse just realised it was you that replied 😃thanx so much 😀
Hello how is your son doing? I hope that your doing we I understand how you feel I always am afraid that I might say something wrong or rude so I always apologize your not alone
Childhood .. state of constant fear
my mom felt the same way, with my dad, and i felt the same way cause he did worst on me and her, and he abused me like her, and my dad other wife abused me too, so i understand this may be hard for you, and i understand you love your kids, but if you do not want it to kill you say to them, i do not want to talk about this right now.