Really struggling with life

[Becomeanewman]

Hi guys my name is Jordan I’m a 35 year old male...I’ve struggled for many years with feeling low and suicidal thoughts and self harm but have never really spoken to anyone about it before and tried to just get on with life. This past 2 years have been really bad my marriage broke down which I wasn’t too sad about because I knew it was coming and just accepted it, I found someone else who made me really happy and life was ok then I lost my job and when my ex found out I was with someone else she stopped me from seeing our children and have turned them against me I really struggled with this and this started to put a strain on my relationship which eventually broke down also because I just had gone down hill.. in recent weeks I’ve started to hurt myself again because physical pain is better than the emotional pain, I’m in a really bad place at the moment, my doctor has put me on mirtazapine which isn’t helping me at all I have started to sleep but I have really vivid dreams which are bad and I’m putting weight on which isn’t helping with how I feel about myself, I just hate myself at the moment and feel like I’m not good enough.

Thanks for reading sorry

[kenster1]

welcome aboard Jordan sorry to hear of your struggles hopefully being here helps.

[Becomeanewman in reply to kenster1]

Thank you 👍

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It's okay not to be okay on here. It takes courage to ask for help. Can you see any kind of therapist??? Please don't give up hope.❤️

[Becomeanewman]

Thanks but doesn’t feel like it

[lillyofthevalley37]

Imagine how you would feel if one of your children self harmed you would feel bad so please don't do it as it would really hurt those that love you and and it's pointless , if you don't like the mirtazapine then come off it gradually, you will be OK just hold on , your ex can't stop you from seeing your children you have rights , so hold on you will get a job and met someone else eventually, it's just that a few things have gone wrong all at once and you have to get used to it but be ready to apply for jobs meet someone else and apply to see your children

[Brielle-White]

i there, i can really feel what you are going through and what you had to face.. this is how life is and sometimes it gets really hard to get over with the rough times.. what i have learned in life is that if there is anyone who really keeps up your back in the toughest times is you yourself.. i have suffered very rough times but managed to help myself..it takes a little effort, courage, positivity and some help from people who are all there to treat your worries and depression. You just need to gather yourself up and it is better to see a psychotherapist.. talking therapies are a tested way to get over with such a situation.