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Now I’m crying, again.

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I found this poem I forgot I made. For my father.

Called

The worse

I hate myself

But wouldn’t you too?

If you were never true

To the one person who truly loved you

And now they’re in heaven

Or somewhere in the sky

Where they can live peaceful

Without your pain and cry

Because I’d scream your name

Everytime I had a bad dream

Or anytime I felt like being boastful and mean

Or when I wanted something to be clean

How could I break my heart so bad

When at the end of the day you were all I really had

Now I can’t call your phone to let you know when I passed a test

How selfish of me to want to call you

Whenever I’m a mess

Because I knew you’d listen and you’d care

Something I never did for you

Something my heart can’t bare

If you came back I’d give my life

To making sure I treated you right

I’d love you unconditionally

Call you everyday

I’d put my pride aside

I would even pay..

I would take care of you

I’m capable of that now that I’m a nurse

But I can’t save you..

And that’s what is the worst.

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Myre

Hugs and kisses, loads of love. Hope you learn to heal and grow from this. You have my care and support all the way. ❤️

in reply toMyre

I learned so much and I'm grateful for that. Thank you @myre :)

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Randale404

That's a very beautiful, but very sad poem. I know you feel grief, I know you feel like you should've been better. But hey, I'm sure he sees you've changed. He sees you love him. And I know he appreciates that, and he loves you a lot too. And you don't need to call him, he's always with you. He's always proud of you, I'm sure of that. And he doesn't hold any grudges, cause he loves you.

in reply toRandale404

Thank you for reading my poem Randale404 . this is actually old and I found it in my notes on my phone and tears came to my eyes because how much I still carry this burden with me. It's changed me so much as a person. Your words were very comforting. I appreciate you and thank you again!

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JW621

Very beautiful and it touches the heart. Thank you for that

in reply toJW621

I can only write poems when I’m in really bad pain. I’m glad something beautiful can come from our pain. Thank you @jw621 🙏🏼

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JW621 in reply to

Keep writing away

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13ga

wow LG!

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you take my breath away... and without breath - no words...

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wow.

major hugs!! 💜💜💜

in reply to13ga

Thank you that mean so much to me! @13ga

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Agora1

LGrace, tears of sadness whelmed up in me as I read your poem.

Thank you for sharing with us Hugs :) xx

in reply toAgora1

Thank you Agora, I’m sorry to make you tear up. Thank you for reading and feeling the pain with me :) @agora1

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Agora1 in reply to

Beautifully said LGrace :) xx

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KailaLili

Absolutely beautiful and touching poem. 💕💕💕 Lost my popps, too.

in reply toKailaLili

I'm sorry for your loss to..I know you must know how it feels. RIP to your father 🙏 i'm glad you liked the poem :) KailaLili

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KailaLili in reply to

Thanks for sharing!! Hugs to you!!

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SpaceControl

That was very beautiful and emotional. There is so much more to say, but I think I will just let this resonate with me. Thank you for sharing this piece of you life with us.

in reply toSpaceControl

You reading it was more than enough. Thank you for taking the time and letting it resonate with you @spacecontrol. It means so much that I can share something so personal and painful with you all, and then get told it’s beautiful. It changes my perspective of my feelings. I’m grateful :) 🙏🏼

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