hello all,
i am writing to you because i feel a bit depressed. i am writing with my own nature. no punctuation, no capital, just as the words come in my mind. excuse my style.
one thing that i worry when writing these post is that i am anxious of the reaction of some people reading it. as if they will tell me consult a psychologist or so.
i am on medication and on top of that i follow with a psychologist. he is currently in holidays and i don't want to be heavy on him.
i just feel this is my community and it is safe to write here.
i am try to quit smoking. it is so difficult. i don't do anything of my days. i am a bit depressed because i feel lonely. i did not visit my parents in another country because i don't have enough money.
i sleep 13 hours and i feel guilty about it. i was so stressed the previous period that i was close to burn out. i feel so good writing to you about my ideas and thoughts.
i feel i want to do a lot to change myself. i want to quit coffee and have a healthier lifestyle and be more fit. i want to change. it is very hard.
i am aware of my thoughts and i feel i am doing very well. compared to other people, i should be proud of myself. life is so hard and i am doing already a great effort.
i know i should be compassionate and look at the things from the compassionate glasses. it is sometimes hard i have to say.
i feel guilty of writing to seek for help. i am so hard on myself sometimes.
thank you community for your support. i want to feel happier but sometimes depression and anxiety takes the advantage and come up on the surface.
thank you for your support.
Peace Aries