Holiday Depression

[Starfish_]

My family usually celebrates Christmas Eve & Day so I really want to get into the holiday spirit but I'm super depressed. I want to bake cookies, but also I don't. I have no energy and I'm tired all the time and my meds aren't working yet. Also my partner is in a shitty situation right now I dont want to get into it but I feel bad because I can't help and he shouldn't be in this position in the first place and I have a hard time separating my feelings from those I care about. I just don't know what to do. We aren't celebrating as usual because of covid, things are weird because in the last three months my parents divorced and our dog died and my depression got worse so everything is different and shitty and I hate it.

I'm starting to ramble now but yeah, everything seems really bleak and I just want to be happy, even if it's just for those two days.

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Hi there🙂 I'm sorry that things are bleak for you right now. Take comfort in knowing that you have a good excuse to feel sh*tty right now. Covid-19 has turned everything on its head, so to speak. Nobody knows when things will get back to normal and it's very depressing.Your sentence about separating your feelings.... resonates with me because I do the same thing. I get too involved in others' situations at the expense of caring for myself. It is exhausting. It is very sweet and selfless of you to do this, but remember that you and your feelings matter too.

[Catsamaze ADAA Volunteer]

Hi Starfish. Holidays can be wonderful. But they can also be stressful because you are supposed to be happy, and if you’re not it’s easy to feel there’s something wrong with you. There’s nothing wrong with you. You’ve had an incredibly tough year. As if all of that isn’t enough, Covid is the cherry on top. Despite all of that, you still want to bake cookies and get in the holiday spirit. Maybe you can’t feel it now, and for good reason. But you have the spirit in you. Not just the holiday spirit but the enduring kind. Not everyone i I has that.