Anxiety

I am feeling tearful and overwhelmed. I feel like Im shutting down. Need to get back up. I talked to my mum today (Her husband died recently so I have been trying to support her) but I find her way of being so draining at times. Its hard to explain 😔. I was so motivated to work before I rang her but after coming off the phone I felt like I had nothing left. I work for myself and struggle with anxiety of facing people and now its so hard. I am across from my first job as I speak and Im struggling to go to it. I dont want to end today without doing any work but Im finding it difficult right now. I guess I thought it may help me to write this. 'A problem shared is a problem halved' they say. Love to you all everyone. Sorry for everyone else who struggles too. You're not alone! 🌼🌻💙💜

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I’m sorry about your mom. It can be very draining to support someone who is grieving. Take some slow deep breaths and keep reaching out on here if it helps with the stress. Take care of yourself!

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Sorry but I dont think I worded my post right. The grieving isnt draining. I would find that easier if my mum cried or got upset. Its because shes been so cold why I have found it so hard. She just seems so clinical and it feels difficult for me to handle that. I have found it hard to process thats all. I havent understood why shes been like that but a friend said it may be her way of coping.

My mum didnt raise me and was really cold when she saw me and wouldnt hug me and would push me away and it left me constantly anxious. It can remind me of the past thats all and makes me feel worthless and upset. I am in touch and tey to be there for her and I try forget the past but it still can be painful and makes me feel really vulnerable. I can get exhausted after talking to her when shes been so cold because I feel the sadness and despair and pain I felt when I was left alone by her. Its hard to explain.

I will still be there but sometimes its hard for me to cope.

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Sounds like a very difficult relationship. I’m sorry you didn’t have a proper emotional response from her when you were younger, she must have had issues of her own to have treated a child so coldly. I can imagine that would be a very painful memory.

Some of my earliest memories are of being handed off to older siblings to deal with me instead of getting time with my mom, which kind of made me feel like a chore or like she didn’t have time for me. So I can relate a little bit.

Unemotional people can be very difficult to deal with! She probably appreciates your trying to be there for her and just can’t show it very well.

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Thank you for sharing that. Yes, I understand it would be difficult for you. It helps to know others have some understanding. Im really sorry you experienced that. It means alot that you can relate. 💕💞🌻🌸🦋

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How are you doing today?

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Im struggling today tbh. Thank you for asking me though. That is kind🌻🌸

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I’m sorry. The holidays can be rough. Hang in there! ❤️ I hope you get some time off from work over the holidays to get some rest and relaxation!

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I’m sorry this is difficult for you😣💞💞I can relate to some of this saddly having a mother with coldness , unloving it’s very painful and hard to understand!!😱I’m dealing with these painful feeling right now as I’m writing this!! But I’m also trying to remember things I’ve learned that it isn’t the way it’s meant to be and only temporary & I want to hold on to hope for better beautiful days ahead!! But I feel you friend it’s hard , painful and very emotional draining at times!! I hope for you to feel better and can smile or laugh at something soon & me to we need that!!☺️🌻🧸🎈❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❣️❣️🐶🐶🐶🐶

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I feel for you too. 💙💜💚💛 Yes hopefully we can do nice happy things. It is right to treat ourselves well. We deserve that! Yes, this is temporary and our efforts to show love can help others to learn love too hopefully 😊. Yes, I believe there will be beautiful better days too 🦋🦋🦋🦋 🌻 🐅🐕🐱🍓🍑🍇

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Sometimes we have alot of things in common with other people and they have their fair share of problems and are very nice - You shouldn't be scared of people - all struggle to step forward and need someone nice to approach them

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I can relate to some of what you're saying. I help take care of my disabled mother and brother and though it's an honor to take care of them, it can be emotionally draining at times. I am naturally introverted but have to be extroverted at work so I can understand a bit of your job anxiety. Hang in there and do your best today. That's all we can ask of ourselves. 💜

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Thank you for your encouragement and inspiring example 😊 💜💙