Anxiety and fear

[UkyoCoanccy]

Today is not a good day in my job and I do not know how to deal with it. There is nothing bad happening but I am too scared. I am doing the schedule for my coworkers and my GM asked me to show it to her when it is done. She never do that. And even though I know that it does not mean anything bad I feel scared. I fear that she do not like it and get mad or that she thinks that I am doing a bad job.

That feeling and thought don't let my mind.

I feel that I want to cry and I am thinking ahead planning to tell her that I do not want that responsibility anymore.

But if I do that I could be wrong and she could think bad about me and my performance.

OMG.

I want to leave.

Sorry

I just wanted to share.

[Grateful71]

How are you doing? It's been a few hours since you posted. I know we think too far ahead when we have anxiety and most if the time what we imagine is going to happen never does. I think it's how we protect ourselves but we really don't need to. Let me know how you are doing if you can 💛

[Help_Me_Please in reply to Grateful71]

That was well said, although I suspect that when we are looking ahead and planning a worst case scenario it really isn’t helping us.

[UkyoCoanccy in reply to Grateful71]

Well, nothing happened. She jus wanted to know how I was going to fix the schedule for the holidays. After that situation I felt much much better but some kind of stupid because I was overreacting.

After that I got stressed because my GM ask me to do drastic movements so it means that I had to cut-off 3 more days of work besides the 2 already had in the schedule to my coworkers.

I felt bad and sad because of that.

I am just thinking a lot on that situation.

I do not know. Really I am not sure how am I feeling right now.

My mind and feelings are a huge mess but nobody knows it. I show that I am Ok.

So in theory I am doing ok.