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[KatzAndDogz]

I've had clinical depression and panic/anxiety disorder for as along as I can remember. My meds were working well, but lately I've hit a major depressive episode. So many things have gone wrong this year, including the collapse of my small business due to the pandemic. My psychiatrist suggested magnetic brain stimulation. That caused me so much face and jaw pain (I also have neurological atypical facial pain) that he had to cut the session short. He then hollered at me that I was "negative" and "pessimistic" and "always had been." I've been going to him for over 15 years. I was in shock, I've stopped seeing him, and I'm not sure what to do next.

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Ask your doctor to recommend you a good psychiatrist

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Hi and welcome! I'm sorry about your business. This has been such a surreal year for everyone. I hope next year will be better.

[FearIsALiar]

I would speak to your doctor and see who he or she can refer you to! Or you could always do your research.

[KatzAndDogz in reply to FearIsALiar]

Thanks for your comment. I can't ask my psychiatrist for a recommendation because he was verbally and psychologically abusive. I haven't had a primary care physician in quite a while and just started seeing one. Perhaps she'd have some suggestions. But, sadly, where I live there are few psychiatrists, and they are pretty terrible. The one I'd been seeing for so long is considered to be the best psychiatrist in town. So that gives you an idea of what the others might be like. I'm willing, though, to look elsewhere in my state and do telemedicine.

[FearIsALiar in reply to KatzAndDogz]

I’m sorry ☹️ I hope you can find someone soon

[KatzAndDogz in reply to FearIsALiar]

Thank you! I do too.

[KatzAndDogz in reply to FearIsALiar]

I've started hunting for psychiatrists in my state. It'd be great if I could find one who does telemedicine, because where we live is far from anywhere. And it'd also be great if he or she took my husband's insurance. I Googled "best psychiatrists in my state," and a lot of the same ones came up on a number of lists. Just called one. Nope, he doesn't do telemedicine until you're an established patient. You have to have your first appointment at his office. I can understand that, but he's pretty far away. I'd be willing to travel there, though. He's gotten such great reviews. But then they told me I was 2 years too old for his practice and that he doesn't take any insurance at all. On to the next. . . .

[FearIsALiar in reply to KatzAndDogz]

If you are from US look on psychology today.com

[KatzAndDogz in reply to FearIsALiar]

Thank you! I'll give it a try. Anything will be a help.

[FearIsALiar in reply to KatzAndDogz]

Let me know if it helped!!

[KatzAndDogz in reply to FearIsALiar]

I haven't tried it yet, but it's my next stop. I'd called another psychiatrist here in town about a week ago to make an appointment--I went to her in the past, but she had to go on medical leave, and in the meantime I found the psychiatrist I've been going to--but she never returned my call. I've been Googling the psychiatric departments of teaching hospitals in my state. Now on to PsychologyToday.com!

[KatzAndDogz in reply to FearIsALiar]

I just went to psychologytoday.com. Wow! It is an enormous help! Thanks so much!

[KatzAndDogz in reply to FearIsALiar]

I also just sent off a request for an appointment at the Psychiatry Department of the Mayo Clinic. They have three locations in the US: in Rochester, Minnesota; Jacksonville, Florida; and Phoenix, Arizona. They seem to have psychiatrists at all three locations. Maybe I'll check the Cleveland Clinic too. I've had excellent luck with them regarding my neurological atypical facial pain, which no neuro where I live had any idea about. They only know about migraines and epilepsy. I don't know how many locations the Cleveland Clinic has, but I'll check. I got out of bed yesterday and walked my dog and had a fairly "normal" day (whatever that is ). But today, I simply could not get out of bed. I lay there with the covers over my head, my heart pounding, and just feeling utter dread. Sigh. Boy, do I ever hate severe clinical depression and panic/anxiety disorder.

[FearIsALiar in reply to KatzAndDogz]

I had a hard time getting out of bed today too :((

[KatzAndDogz in reply to FearIsALiar]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Clinical depression sucks so much. I mean, OK, I lost my business, which I've run for 35 years, to COVID. I know I'm still grieving that loss. I wish I could figure out something else to do. But often I just feel like "Why get out of bed? There's no point. You have nothing to do. Nobody cares." and all those pleasant (hah!) depressive thoughts. I hope you feel lots better soon.

[FearIsALiar in reply to KatzAndDogz]

Wow I’m very sorry..many have lost businesses due to covid. Very sad time for many what kind of business did you run?

[Help_Me_Please]

I’m sorry you’re going through all of that. I think people are suggesting that tour primary care doctor refer you to another psychiatrist; although you make the comment that there are not many to choose from in your town.

[KatzAndDogz in reply to Help_Me_Please]

Yes, there are really very few psychiatrists where I live. The one I've been going to is considered to be the best psychiatrist in town. I've gone to several of the others before I found him. I've never seen such a bunch of know-nothings and sadists in my life. I kid you not.