Hi. Here's what I've got: panic disorder, agoraphobia, some OCD and the aftermath of some kind of trauma though that hasn't been formally diagnosed.
Friends say all these symptoms (anxiety, hyperalertness, fluctuating self esteem, etc.) and the other stuff might be related to my childhood. I had friends in grade school but never connected with my parents. I'm wondering if any of you had the same experience. They weren't mean to me, but they weren't approachable. There was not what you could call a relationship. My mother was very abusive to my father (until he died, then she idolized him verbally). She used to taunt him. There was no affection between them. In my teens, my mother used to punch me randomly, especially when I was driving, and I have no idea why.
I'm remarried (the first one was scarily like my mother) to an awesome woman. Together we have a bunch of kids and even more grandchildren. But I've still got this backpack full of psychological challenges and I'm looking to figure them out.
Anyway, hi.
Ryan