I shouldn’t complain. I know so many people actually have no one. But I’ve always wanted a best friend I could go to for anything. I have a girlfriend and she’s great and I appreciate her and I’m grateful.
But sometimes I wish I had a true platonic friend as well. Doesn’t everyone need friendships outside their relationship? I’m such a social person. I love people.
I get depressed a lot. Sometimes it seems like for no reason. I feel like if I had someone to vent to it might help. I’ve tried therapy so many times. I always feel like they’re just trying to make their buck. My family doesn’t like to discuss any kind of unpleasant issues. So I can’t go to them.
At 35, all I’ve ever really wanted is a true friend. And I’ve yet to find one. Not just for support through the bad times. But to be there for the good ones too. I often think maybe I just made all the wrong turns in life and deserve where I am. I make mistakes all the time and maybe that’s what leads me to where I am today.
Maybe it is me. I’m not sure. Or maybe I’m supposed to find happiness just with myself and my girlfriend and our pets and just be happy with that but it’s hard sometimes.