Why does everything seem to happen all at once

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It’s been over 2 years since I’ve posted. My panic attacks have nearly gone away, physically I’m in a much better place. But I’m still so unhappy and depressed. I wish I had a purpose. I find myself feeling so useless and worthless more and more often now. I’m struggling balancing school and working and it’s just becoming increasingly more difficult to handle. My home life isn’t much better with parents that barely get along and are on the brink of divorce. I’m struggling financially like so many others right now & I feel like I push away any love interest I have because of my trust issues and insecurities from past traumas with men. So I’m feeling heartbroken on top of already hating my life and feeling as if I’ll never be successful or happy. I don’t know how to feel better. I don’t know how I’m going to keep myself motivated to keep trying when I’ve been so unhappy since the age of 14...I’ve been depressed for nearly 10 years now. It doesn’t feel like it ever gets better. Just worse as I grow older and more responsibilities pile up. I’m just totally overwhelmed. I don’t even know what I expect from this post...I guess I just need to finally let it out. I’m just not okay.

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StP,

Your emotional problems started when you found out that most teenage boys have the emotional maturity of an amoeba, and your girlfriends are not much better.

If you can tell me, even if in a PM, some main disappointment you had at age 14, in as much painful detail as you can handle, that you try to forget and have never really successfully dealt with - I can help get you a little past this.

If you are wondering, I honestly don’t know how I can do this, but I just do...

Catman

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My first thought when I feel overwhelmed is "what do I feel like doing?" If I feel like curling up in a ball and crying, I do that. If I feel like screaming, I go for a walk and I scream. If I feel like breaking something, I spend $20 on cheap dishes from the dollar store or goodwill and find a safe space (that is easily swept up) to smash them and I smash them! Talking things out will always help a little but I think the uncivilized part of our brains knows the best way to get things off of our chests and I try to find a safe way to do what I feel I really need to. I hope this helps

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Did I just write this ?????

I have been the same too. Minus parents issue cause I’m a bit older.

I will tell you what I do. When it comes to trust. I trust no one. But I test the person before I date them. However. I will never trust them completely lol.

You have a lot on your plate.

There are surveys you can do to make some pocket money. Survey junky and survey branded. Around three hundred.

It’s hard to work and school. My anxiety makes it harder. So I’m sure it’s hard maybe for you.

Your in school that’s good. And working. . I been working towards my degree for five yrs. I should be done in 2021. Omg. And my gpa is low. So I understand. Stress.

I feel like I’m useless and good at nothing. I can barely look in mirror. What ever you do don’t cut your hair all off like I just did. Lollll.