Everything I see hear think feel reminds me of what horrific thing could happen or reminds me of harsh realities. I’m getting very tired of trying to be positive and counteract the negative intrusive thoughts without success. My head feels full and pressured. I keep thinking how am I going to go on suffering so especially when things get harder. Will I become stronger? Maybe if I believe God and angels and my grandparents are helping me I won’t feel on my own. Im scared;I have this doom type of general fear going on and the littlest things are scaring me. I just don’t know how long it will last why it’s here with me and if it will leave ever. I don’t want to give it power but it is here with me right now so I have to face it. My heart feels very open but vulnerable right now. I’ve been doing all the things I feel I should be doing. Maybe it will lift soon. Thanks for reading!!