I can’t stop crying, I’m scared.

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I had bad anxiety yesterday due to a lot of things but mostly because of lots of deadlines. Today I woke up feeling mostly better, but still a little anxious. I spoke with my professor this afternoon so I was feeling pretty well until tonight. Tonight while at a football game for my brother (he’s in marching band), my uncle calls me and tells me that my grandmother is in the Er with bad pneumonia. She has chronic lung issues and I know that this will be hard on her. She never complains about anything so I knew she was really sick. I couldn’t stop periodically crying while at the game so I went to the car to wait on my brother. She is the backbone of our family and I feel so helpless not even being able to be there with her. Stupid Covid regulations.

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I’m really really sorry to hear about your grandmother. I don’t have too much I can say but I really pray she gets better.

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I'm sorry. Things are so hard these days.

[HJam5880]

I cried a lot today. My grandmother is a lot better. Praise the Lord🙌🏻! But we had my stepsisters wedding today and I was the only sibling not in the ceremony itself. I felt left out and then felt more angry than I was upset. I just felt like she doesn’t care about me. The wedding was originally planned for May, but had to be rescheduled to today because of Covid.