Why fight

[ComingUpRoses]

I am so emotionally exhausted today. I had to move a lot of stuff yesterday by myself in the attic of our building so the new landlords had place to put their stuff. It was way too much emotionally. Today was burnout at work. I'm running an emotional deficit and am so incredibly tapped out. I don't want to go to work tomorrow. It's the same old, same old.

I notice even in my better periods, depression doesn't go away. I can feel it there, like someone standing behind me. Even in the good times, I don't see the point of life. Why continue going on? Everyone tells you to hang in there, it gets better. I can't take these platitudes anymore, because it doesn't. I just don't understand the point to keep fighting. I'm exhausted.

[Purplesocks02]

That sucks. Depression is so emotionaly crippling. When I'm at my lowest I hate cheesy statments like "it gets better" because ur right, alot of times it doesnt get better and you need to continue to fight every moment to stay aflot. What helps me is forcing myself todo something i usualy enjoy. Like painting or listening to mysic. Honeslty we need to just take it moment by moment.

[ComingUpRoses in reply to Purplesocks02]

Thank you. You are right. I'm taking alone time this evening to try and decompress.

[marsdream]

I am sorry that you are going through this struggle. Depression is real. My teen continues to go through depression and there seems like there is no easy fix, We tried the natural herbal route which seemed to help. it took about two months on the herbals, since she had depression for about a year. She is getting better. But honestly, she could not walk through that alone. My husband and I pray for her constantly. Also, she is eating a little better diet which also helps with mood. Surrounding her with safe friends also helped her and not to overwhelm her schedule. You said that your move was overwhelming. Do you have any family that can just come over and give you a break, maybe take you for coffee or just to go for a walk with you? Don't try to do all of this alone. I will pray for you. Father in Heaven, I pray in Jesus name for ComingUpRoses. She is valued in Your eyes. She has so much life to live. Please help her to feel Your loving arms around her today. In Jesus name. Amen. Take care to do some self care. Hugs! You can do this!

[ComingUpRoses in reply to marsdream]

I'm glad your daughter is showing progress with her fight. It'll help so much when she gets older. You're a wonderful, loving parent giving her the support she needs.

It wasn't a move, I had to rearrange a lot of stuff in our attic because new landlords bought the building and needed space to store their stuff. I don't have family anymore outside of mom and dad, and they are not well physically to have helped.

Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate them very much.

[Junella]

So most of us on here have been there and can relate. You are not alone.

I am sorry you feel so alone.

You can get help through healthy eating (mostly vegetables and fruit and beans; oatmeal for breakfast helped me with BP) and daily exercise--start with 30 mins of walking. We are whole persons and it takes caring for the whole body. You have no doubt heard of mindfulness and breathing. Look it up on-line.

Do you have a faith or church? You are never alone if you can pray. Spiritual help is needed; even writing out prayers or journaling. You can get distracted from your feelings by following a daily routine of food, exercise, sleep, reading and watching only positive books and TV. And, of course, calling people. I learned they usually don't call---you have to reach out. Find some Zoom groups. Get out in the sunshine for at least 20 mins.

Call you parents; I am sure they are suffering--maybe you already do. Call an old friend. I will bet someone there is wishing you would call and is concerned for you.

Not long ago, I did some moving from California home to Maryland. We had an apartment there for the winter. I injured myself and have had intercostal neuralgia since. It is so painful with good days and bad days. I saw 5 doctors; and this stressed me mentally. I found that morning prayers and meditation have done the most good and I am gradually walking more again.

[ComingUpRoses in reply to Junella]

I did try exercising for months on at least two occasions this past year. I gave up because I was still not sleeping well, leaving my energy next to nil for exercise. It became too depressing and frustrating. Now it's getting into winter and where I live it is not practical to be outside.

I am not religious, but do have my beliefs. I appreciate your input on everything.