realizing the problem

[Dxnnie-dark]

hey guys , i'm new here and to be honest i don't really know what to talk about

i'm 20 , i suffer from anxiety and depression and possibly bipolar disorder. i feel like i'm trapped from my current financial , emotional and living situation. i can't afford therapy and trying to get my license has been quite difficult. my mother suffers from manic bipolar disorder having gone "spiritually woke" stopped taking her medication a long time ago and talks nothing but politics , how all democrats are satanists and how president trump is gonna save us. she claims to be not racist but will then call people a racial slur behind their backs , will pursue and blame people for acting out of line claiming that the AI simulation is targeting her. at this point i've lost all love for life , the only times i leave the house is for work and household chores. any advice on the matter ?

[Bluebeagle2020]

Hi, Dxnnie!

I am pretty new to this site myself, but have been battling the beast of depression for a long time. Welcome to this site. I am glad you are here!

Your situation sounds really hard. I am sorry. I am glad for you that you have work to keep you busy--and maybe get you out of the house, depending on your job. Your mom sounds challenging! Good for you for not following in her footsteps though. Would you be able to afford therapy if it were sliding scale? I know a lot of places have that.

Glad that you are reaching out. Hopefully this will help you feel less trapped. Hang in there!

[newdaynewlight]

Hi there!

First off- I am sorry you're feeling trapped and stuck. Though I may not have had the same situation as you, I as a 20 y/o also know that feeling and it is anything but easy. I think part of it may be with the awkward transition in age we're in... but regardless we are here for you!

Especially with the stressors at home with mom, maybe it would be helpful to take a step back and really think of what you want/ need for yourself. Then start by setting small, attainable goals and start putting yourself and your own mental/ emotional needs first. Do things for yourself for fun... doesn't have to be anything crazy. In my case I started going for walks by myself to have my "me" time.

Sending lots of love!