Hi everyone. I’m just reaching out right now for any support or advice anyone can give. I’m struggling really bad in what most would call an abusive relationship. I don’t want to go into so much detail about that because it would take too long to type. However, I’m considering leaving. I’ve been with this man for 3 1/2 years and it just keeps getting worse and worse. Everyday everything gets blamed on me. I try and try and try and nothing works to make anything better. Then this morning I look on his phone, which I know is a violation of privacy and not acceptable for me to do. And I wish I hadn’t now. I saw messages to an ex girlfriend saying how much he loves her still and also messages with another girl which he lied about to me. This hurts my heart so much. especially since I have made this mistake before, in reaching out to an ex boyfriend. And when he found out he lost his mind. I know it’s not acceptable for him to do the same to me but if I ever brought it up he’d find a way to turn it around on me.
So instead I’m considering leaving. I don’t have anywhere to go besides moving states away and I don’t have any money saved up to get my own place. I at least have a car. I feel kind of silly typing this, but I really just need some support.