Might be a long post. Happy but also heartbroken.

[HJam5880]

I’ll start at the beginning. I used to have a boyfriend who is now one of my best friends but he lives out of state. We have grown really close over the past few years and in a way, I really wanted to believe that we still had a shot at getting back together. Well he had a relationship going a few months ago but due to the lack of really seeing him, I didn’t know it was going anywhere. Last night, I had a dream that I was taking a pregnancy test and it was positive. In the dream, I went and told him he would be a dad and we were both elated! I woke up this morning feeling a little weird about it even though I know it’s totally normal. I was so sad and upset that it wasn’t true and isn’t reality, I was so happy and excited in the dream. I haven’t been that happy and excited in a long time (depression sucks). The odd thing is, that I’ve never even had sexual relations with anyone. Well today I found out that he got married this week. I am so heartbroken knowing that we don’t have any chance now, but I’m so happy for him and knowing that he is happy.

Edit: I’m definitely not ready to have a child yet. I’m still in college and I don’t have a job or relationship yet. I want to be married, have stable finances, and my own home before I start thinking about having kids. I love babies though and I babysit every once in a while.

I don’t know what to do.😫😔

[hurtingheart1]

Sounds like you’re having normal feeling, thoughts, reactions to this past relationship! But you’re being too hard on yourself maybe? As you mentioned you’re pretty young to have a baby and all so just enjoy life & freedom you have to learn & grow- I’m sure another guy will come along in future you’ll be much more ready for it then!! Take care & you don’t have to be soo strong or hard on yourself don’t put the extra pressure!!💞🌸🌻☺️

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Dream recall and remembering your emotional state and feelings is an amazing trait if you have the ability to do it. Analyzing dreams isn’t something I know very much about, but could be it’s a manifestation of your subconscious perhaps of having some regret, not taking more chances in your relationship, particularly if this young man could have been the one for you. I’m just speculating.

Being happy for another persons happiness in spite of it not going your way shows what kind of character you have.

There isn’t much you can do, life’s experiences prepare us for the next path, the next venture, the next challenge, so on and so on. This undoubtedly can prepare you for the next love that comes in your life. You have a lot of years ahead to build your life, to have all the things you desire as you mentioned. Wishing you the best.

🌺💜