I read all of the posts and feel everyone's pain I wish it could go away for all of us. O One of the hardest things is all of the wasted time That has occurred because of this anxiety good times that should have been had were turn into anxiety fillled nightmares.
I suffer from the opposite of what i read on most posts. I dont go to the doctor i avoid ruminate what if and have catastropphic thoughts about the terminal disease i must have because i dont visit the doctor
The pain and anxiety that i go thru waiting on results pacing no sleep no eat pins needles crying hot flashes cant be around anyone no one gets it i have litterally stayed up for says on end
This pain illogically out weighs the common sense of most people just seeing a doctor
I wish this on no one!
Not sure if anyone had similar
Welcomr any thoughts
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I'm sorry you're going through this. But I understand about not having a doctor. I stopped going to a doctor about 35 years ago. I was younger and healthy then. As I got older I began to realize that sooner or later I'd need one. At first it didn't bother me but as the years went by it weighed more on my mind. Four years ago I began having panic attacks. Not having a doctor added to the anxiety and I began to imagine all sorts of things wrong with me. I began having panic attacks every day. I was 68 then and I kept worrying about my heart. Sometimes the panic attack symptoms were similar to a heart attack or a heart problem. I tried a few times to get a doctor but it wasn't easy; so many weren't taking new patients, I didn't like their profiles or they had bad reviews.I don't like doctors and I'm terrified of hospitals. In the past 2-3 years I've been hospitalized twice. It was necessary and frightening but nothing that could have been avoided even if I had a regular doctor in the first place. Maybe you should start looking for a doctor, it's a start. Once I started looking I felt a little better. Although I didn't get one then and would give up and start over again in a few months I felt that I was at least doing something. Last week I finally found a health provider but could only get a phone appointment. I do feel better, more relieved. At least about my health because now things are moving forward in that area anyway. It hasn't solved all my problems, I have many right now that aren't health related, but it's one less thing to worry about. I hope I've said something here that helps you. You aren't alone. This is a good place to find people who really do understand how you feel.
ty! My dislike of doctors is not as great as my fear of a heart problem. I can't live with the fear anymore - I need to know if I have a problem or not. At a hospital I had to go to, not my choice of hospital, the doctors lied about several things. Now I will find out the truth regarding my heart - later today I'm calling to make an appointment for a cardiac assessment with medical professionals who work out of my preferred hospital. It didn't take any energy, I have little of that. It was driven by an increasing level of fear. If I were younger I wouldn't be worried, but my age...my heart is old and has been through a lot, extreme stress may have damaged it. I think we all reach a point where the fear of inaction outweighs the fear of doing something. I wish you well and hope you find the strength to do what you can for your own health.
ty Kamsrv! I'll let you know how I am when I find out. I had an appointment this morning for lab work. I've had some lab work done a few months ago and everything was fine, I don't expect a change in that. The important one is the cardiac assessment. I have a November 6 appointment for that. I'm glad that things seem to be moving right along here and it has provided a little relief for me in that area.
I was a strong person in the past but not now, although I try to be, But my other problems are overwhelming. I hope my heart is strong, in the past they told me it was but 2 years ago I had what's called a stress-induced cardiomyopathy, I was in the crappy hospital for a week. In December I had to go to the emergency room (at my preferred hospital) and they told me my heart was fine. But I needed an emergency operation on my throat the next morning. So back to the crappy hospital for that. Anyway, 3 weeks later in a rehab facility they told me that the hospital had told them I had an enlarged heart. Why didn't the hospital tell me? They put it on my paperwork they gave to the rehab people. And they told other lies to the rehab place. But I have a great fear that I could have another stress-induced heart problem like before. I'm all alone here, my partner died in his sleep 5 days before I had the throat operation in December. It's all quite frightening to me so I try not to think about it.
I haven't had a doctor of my own in over 30 years. But now I think I almost have one - I had a phone appointment with an NP the other day. Then I got a phone call to set up an appointment with a doctor. I looked up the doctor and she's a psychologist. WTH??? So I called and asked why and they said something about "integrative medicine". Yeah, okay. Whatever. Anyway, I talked to her yesterday and I see why they had her call me - it's because of the panic attacks. She was nice, we spoke for over an hour and came to the conclusion that I'm very knowledgeable in regard to panic attacks. She had little advice to offer me that I didn't already know. And she agreed with quite a few of the things I told her as to why I have them, how I deal with the fear they create at the onset (which I have pretty much under control), etc. The cardiac assessment I have in November is what I'm mostly interested in and the results of the lab work from the other day. The main problem I have is the stress-induced cardiomyopathy - it can happen anytime without warning, your heart can be perfectly healthy and it can still happen. I see in my email they've sent the results of the lab work. I'll read it in a few minutes.
I've been having computer problems, had it fixed day before yesterday but it died again last night. Had it fixed again this morning. So if I take a long time replying that's probably why. I hope it stays okay, it causes me a lot of anxiety when I'm isolated from everyone without my PC.
ty! I'm not really very strong, I'm just afraid that not knowing could be worse. I think it's better for me to know what's wrong so I can do something about it. And it has to do with my age - when you get older I think you become more frightened of what could happen to you healthwise. And because I only have my niece and her husband to help me when they can it's even scarier to think what will happen to me if I get very sick. I don't have a network of friends or family to be with me. I read the results and I have borderline high triglycerides and cholesterol. I think I know the reason so I'm working on it now. They also said my blood glucose was in the pre-diabetes range. I never had those problems before. The form also said "Continue to lower your intake of white sugar and white flour." in regard to the pre-diabetes, but I don't use white sugar or really any sweeteners at all other than a little xylitol once in a while in my tea. The white flour may be from bread. I'll have to check that. I don't know why they said "Continue...." - I never spoke to anyone about it.
LOL! You sound more anxious to know than I was. I'll repeat what I told Kamsrv - I have borderline high trglycerides and cholesterol. I think I know the reason so I'm working on it now. They also said my blood glucose was in the pre-diabetes range. I never had any of those problems before. The form also said "Continue to lower your intake of white sugar and white flour." in regard to the pre-diabetes, but I don't use white sugar or really any sweeteners at all other than a little xylitol once in a while in my tea. The white flour may be from bread. I'll have to check that. I don't know why they said "Continue...." - I never spoke to anyone about it.
I hope so. There are natural ways to lower cholesterol and in the past I've researched a ton of stuff regarding cholesterol for an article I wrote. For the pre-diabetes, I'm not sure. There's an herbal supplement that can lower blood sugar but I should probably ask a doctor about it, although I doubt if any doctors know anything about herbal remedies - they just love to poison their patients with prescriptions. I need to get off my lazy butt and exercise, that would be very helpful.
Im the same im terrified to go incase its bad news to the point i cant eat or sleep i can barely function i hate this so much the constant feeling of pure fear 😫 i wish we could overcome this x
I realy dint know i dont i struggle with it every day x
I fear not catching a problem early enough and finding out I have stage 4 cancer that’s spread all over my body. I go to the doctor because I get very anxious when something doesn’t seem right and my mind goes to the worst possible scenario. so while you’re afraid to go to the doctor, I’m afraid to NOT go. it’s crazy the power our minds have over us. I learned in DBT that if there’s no immediate threat to your life, you should try doing the things you fear. You first need to convince yourself that the good will outweigh the bad and the more you do things you fear, the less scary they will be. You take away the power those thoughts have over you when you defy them and do the fearful thing anyways. I know how you feel. There are things I’m deathly afraid to do and they are quite normal things. I force myself i do some things but only after much thinking, planning and having an escape in place just in case I can’t do it. Try to reason on the fact that there is no immediate threat to seeing the doc, make a list of pros and cons to see if the pros outweigh the cons. Make a plan on how you will get yourself there (maybe invite a friend). Make an escape plan so you can get out if you need to. You have to give it a shot. If you can’t go through with it, make a new plan to see the doc. You will eventually find what works for you to get to the doctors. I hope you figure something out that work for you. You can do this!
There are 2 types of health anxiety. So there is care-avoidant so you avoid going to the Dr's and care-seeking that really off reassurance and going to the Dr's too much. I find I am care avoidant and have care-seeking behaviors. I avoid the Dr's because of a fear of being told the worst but I also really on reassurance from my friends family and partner. Hope that helps a little bit. Helped me understand it a little bit more knowing that it was a anxiety habit because last time I had a flair up I was at the Dr's every 2 days and now this time I avoid the Dr's at every cost
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