Bout of Depression

Hello,

I just signed up for this app so please note I am learning how to use this.

I am going through a bout of depression, it’s happened once in a while over the years. These days, I don’t care to eat, take care of myself, work on any projects or hobbies. I have lost interest in everything and have a growing dislike for myself and my life. I don’t care to sleep, but don’t want to get out of bed and do anything either. I just vegetate on the phone wondering if there is any relief. I like when I am asleep and don’t like it when I awake.

I have no friends or family whom I can speak to about this. I have no insurance because this country doesn’t value it as a human right but are intent on keeping it tied to employment.

I am not currently working as I got furloughed in the pandemic and then my position was closed. In actuality they temporarily closed it in order to hire someone else but couldn’t fire me as I did my job well. I was surrounded by misogynistic condescending White boomers, I had never dealt with such a toxic and mentally exhausting work environment as I had. They were executives who couldn’t even do basic computing like printing, yet had the high salary jobs and had others do all their work for them while they played musical chairs around the office and chatting the day away at “meetings”. So I was relieved when the job ended. I have been trying to get a small online business started in order to avoid long work hours and toxic work conditions and being treated like crap. I hate what people have made of my life. Employment and promotion is at the mercy of someone else’s whims. I hate this cruel world.

[Decent8686]

Stay Strong

Never Give Up

These Things Are Part Of Life

[Hidden in reply to Decent8686]

Thanks

[Hidden]

Wow, I see i’m ignored and unwanted on this too.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Welcome to the group

Why do you feel ignored?

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

Next to no engagement. People post after me and they have a lot of engagement. I waited a few hours and and I’m off

[LoveBear]

Sounds like you’ve been through a lot- have you tried meditating? It’s helping me refocus on myself, taking time for myself and focusing on what I can control. It’s not about everyone else it’s about me. Take care

[Hidden]

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[LilyAnnepuppy]

Welcome to the group. It really is a good place to be. You don’t mention whether or not you’re under treatment for your depression and anxiety. I know I can’t manage my mental illness on my own without professional help. Don’t be discouraged about not getting a lot of replies. Just keep posting and let us know how you’re feeling.

[HisChild4ever]

I am very sorry that you are struggling so much with depression! And I am very sorry too that you had a horrible job! I have suffered from depression for a long time and a time came when I couldn't work anymore. It's been hard to function. Are you meeting with a therapist? Do you need medications for your depression? I know that professional help is very important when you live with a mental illness. It's wonderful that you are trying to start your own online business! I hope you succeed. Life is not easy. I don't know why I got depression or why I have been suffering from it for so many years. In this life we have suffering and injustices and all kinds of evil. We have to persevere. I wish you healing and success and peace and contentment and lots of strength too. Don't give up!