This is the way I feel

[bonkers65]

I'm in survival mode. And I have to force myself to do that.

[Hidden]

GET OUT OF BED & GO OUTSIDE FOR A WALK.

Physical exercise helps demonstrably.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Hidden]

Many people with depression cannot just “Get out of bed” and do anything. Yelling at each other (all caps) isn’t something we encourage on this site. Although your point may be well taken, it’s stated in a brusque manner. Just sayin’

[mrmonk in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you for your empathetic comment, it helps. Demonstrably.

[bonkers65 in reply to Hidden]

I do but it does not help much.

[Hidden]

Hi. I'm glad you're taking care of yourself.

[Hidden]

I hear you. I'm going nuts myself. I'm just trying to stay out of going to a psychiatric ward. I wish something would get better instead of getting worse. I'm angry that RBG died. I hate Donald Trump, I hate everyone and everything. I just eat and sleep lately, and I don't really want to eat. My snobby sister is at the house right now and I'd love to beat her up, but I won't. People just suck and no one cares how I feel anyways.

[bonkers65 in reply to Hidden]

I know. It's hell isn't it. I have a hard time even eating but I force myself to. I have no appatite

[LoveBear]

I can relate the last few weeks have been tough. Do you have a therapist? I meet with mine at least weekly sometimes twice a week - sometimes I feel like talking about it makes it worse but he gets me through the day. I’m trying not to think and just be...seems to be helping me a bit. I was getting stuck in bad circle of thoughts just being... thinking about you

[bonkers65 in reply to LoveBear]

I was seeing a therapist for a few months but it didn't seem to be getting anywhere. Been seeing therapist off and on most of my adult life. Tried a lot of meds to no avail. Am on Abilify now but it doesn't seem to be helping either.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to bonkers65]

I’m on Abilify but it’s in conjunction with Prozac. And it’s working pretty well. In addition to my therapist I also see a psychiatrist who handles the meds. I can identify with your symptoms.

[bonkers65 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

I'm glad you are getting some relief from your meds.

[bonkers65]

Thanks everybody for your support.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Then my hat is off to you and you have my admiration. Keep up the good work.

[Hidden]

I am sorry. Right there with you. I have been this way for 3 years. No medication helps. Not sure how much more I can do ....but I keep trying.

[bonkers65 in reply to Hidden]

Yes that's all we can do is keep trying.

[Iammesues in reply to Hidden]

I love your name. I used to be happy too although so hard to remember when. Now I’m broken into many pieces

[Hidden]

Describe or define “survival mode”

Also, “force” what is that like?

I’m interested to know

[bonkers65 in reply to Hidden]

Survival mode is where I do only what I have to, eat, pay bills etc. By force I mean I have to force myself to do other things like water the plants, cut the grass, take a shower, go to Dr. app. wash clothes etc.

[Hidden in reply to bonkers65]

Thanks for answering 🙂

Force still equals force. Hehe, what is force to you? To force means? 😊

The answer is really for you more than it is for me. But I can totally benefit from it if you share.

I can be or come off condescending sometimes. I feel now is one of those times. I’m not trying to be hehe, I’m just a deep thinker

[bonkers65 in reply to Hidden]

Self-discipline

[Hidden in reply to bonkers65]

🙂 nice

That’s what’s up.

[ginarose]

I relate with so much from this thread. The struggle is exhausting. Hugs & hopes to all. I’m so overwhelmed I’m finding words hard to come by. Not the norm for me.

[Iammesues in reply to ginarose]

I’ve lost my words too. I’m quite silent these days. I feel like my words are a waste.... nobody really listens to each other anyway

[Iammesues]

Me too. Day be day... and some days are real bad