I joined just now because I suffer for depression and anxiety.
I have a wife and two kids. I’ve been known to be EXTREMELY efficient at my work partially DUE to my anxiety. I don’t leave an email/inquiry/request incomplete due to fear of what I will see in my email inbox the next day. My fellow co-workers are not aware of this. I’m currently taking anti-anxiety medication, but I don’t use it during work. I primarily use it for sleep.
My mind is constantly racing, especially during sleep. I aim to please and constantly evaluate a prior email, conversation, interaction, etc. that I’ve previously had. I’m my own worst critic, my manager and director even know that. I’m also a poker player (maybe that helps or hurts). I remember people’s playing styles and betting patterns.
I’m always searching for “intention” behind the communication that I receive. I feel I’m fairly intuitive in ulterior motives. This could also be a symptom of “over-analyzing”, which I do on a regular basis. In short, I can’t “shut down”. Also, I’m not proud of it, but I occasionally drink to put my mind at ease. Nothing serious to jeopardize my family or wellbeing, but serious enough to hide portions of it when I can.
I’ve never turned to a group/forum like this. My wife is a Leo and I’m a Virgo lol. She doesn’t understand what I’m going through, even though we are “high school sweet hearts”. We have been together since we were fifteen. She tries to sympathize, but just doesn’t understand. I imagine many do not.
That’s the nutshell...