Feel paranoid

[thebreb]

I get caught in these cycles of overthinking that I know on the face of it are ridiculous and crazy, but I still can't manage to shake them. I've been a lot better, but I think stress brought it on this week. My boyfriend came to visit me last night,he does the same time every week. We had a great time, he frequently said how he had such a great time,enjoys being with me. But my brain starts analyzing every conversation, every pause to the point of trying to find something wrong. I know my anxiety is flaring up when that starts to happen. I'm still caught in this and I feel isolated by it. I feel crazy for overanalyzing things this way...and I worry that it will push people I care about,like him, away.

[gnsbao13]

Hello thebreb,

I can totally relate to everything you just said. I find myself over analyzing everything to the point where it makes me extremely upset. When I am with my boyfriend I seem to analyze every pause or gesture. In my mind I know it’s nothing but I can’t seem to shut my mind off. I do this even with texting. I tend to make situations out of nothing or think people are upset. I know that nothing is wrong but I can’t help the feelings that arise from this constant worry. I understand and feel your worry. I too think that the way I act will push the people I love away from me.

I hope things slowly start to get better for you. What I do when I start to act like this is try to turn my negative thinking into positives. Although it is easier said then done. Anyways I hope you feel better this week and have a great day!

[florapeace]

I did this with my boyfriend until I realized that he is my boyfriend and he always wants to know what I’m thinking anyway! Full disclosure should be the best part of a romantic relationship, especially for someone with a mental illness. Honestly, I would vocalize your thoughts because (speaking from experience) sometimes you absolutely need him to grab your face and tell you that you are the most beautiful and interesting thing on the planet and that is okay