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I'm sorry to every memory of yourself where you ignore the violence to keep the peace

I'm sorry for the amount of times you have let it rain on you,

the times times you have let them walk on your open chest just to keep dry

I'm sorry you let them convince you that you come second

that you matter less

that loving others meant suspending your love for yourself

I'm sorry at how often you have accepted humiliation so they don't leave

or have often close your hands to the truth because you have no idea where to place it

you have left rooms biting your tongue

I'm sorry you let it happen

I'm sorry they erased you

broke you

and then could not accept you broken

I'm sorry you thought it was your fault

that you didn't know how easy it can be to close a door, to leave.

I'm sorry you cry when you skim through books

you've learned to read things differently than others

you were never taught the expense of the truth, that not everyone means what they pronounce, that what you don't know can hurt you

I'm sorry that the apologies came too late, and quiet, and that you no longer wait to hear them...

But look at you now

more person than waiting room

look at what you've done for your body

at the inside of your palms.

How often you had to rearrange yourself before you could look like someone you'd love..

look at you now,

placing the truth on your nightstand

sleeping through the quiet

learning to make the kind of memories that you no longer have to apologize to yourself for

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Agora1

Danielle, a beautiful uplifting post by a beautiful positive girl.

Thank you for sharing Sunflower Hugs, Agora :) xx

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Agoraaaaaaaa, I miss you. There's a lot we need to catch up on l, sending you positive energy and lots of love

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Yesterdayhurts

That was great and hit closer to home then you will know. Thank you. Enjoyed it immensely.

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๐ŸŒป๐Ÿ’› thank you for taking the time to read it hun

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Yesterdayhurtsโ€ข in reply to

Post or send more that was amazing.

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melbrown

Sunflower ๐Ÿ’— You have a way with words... I felt less alone reading this... love you Danielle. Thank you for sharing this.

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Melllll I miss you

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hypercat54

Lovely post Danielle. You have shown on here that you won't tolerate this kind of behaviour towards others either. You know what I am talking about and I will never forget it. Thank you. ๐Ÿงก xx

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I do too. Thank you, hypercatโค

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I am sorry to all those who have had this community spoiled for them. I am sorry to all those who genuinely try to help and are met with attacks

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hypercat54โ€ข in reply to

Yes I know you do. Thanks sweetheart. x

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Will definitely not tolerate that kind of behavior, no reason for anyone to bark at someone who's genuinely trying to help we all have our issues but respect is a must. Hope you're staying safe xo

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hypercat54โ€ข in reply to

Absolutely my friend. I still salute you though. I'm Ok thanks, just trundelling along as usual. xx

I started tearing up hslfway through, so I'll read the rest later.

Thank you for your words, dear!โค

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๐ŸŒป๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’› sending you hugs

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Thanks, dear. I just hate the injustice (I'm sure you and others know what I'm talking about). In Bible study yesterday we talked about sin and forgiveness. We talked about the importance of not holding a grudge and forgiving others, no matter how nasty they've been to us. This includes those who go to great lengths to cover up their crimes and play the victim, thereby trying to tarnish their target's reputation. I admit I'm not perfect (none of us are). I don't think any of us is blameless in the bullying department. We are all saints and sinners living in the same body. I do believe, though, that there are 2 kinds of bullies. There's the group that does it unintentionally, and once they realize what they've done they are sorry. Then there's the group that do it intentionally. It takes great strength to forgive all bullies ( made so much more difficult by the second group), but the message I got from yesterday is it needs to be done. The message from yesterday's study that stayed with me is that it is not for us to try and deal with bullies, but it is for God (or whatever your higher power might be). We might have been hurt, we might have been betrayed, we might even have had gossipers who want nothing more than to put the blame on us and make us look bad, but we need to forgive.

Great post. I'm wondering if these are ways you have thought about yourself. Whatever the case, it's like you took a glimpse inside of me for a few seconds. Thank you.

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Hello, thank you for taking the time to read it, not me specifically I wrote this for a close friend of mine

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Celtic27

Amazing post God bless you Danielle x

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David ๐ŸŒป hope you're doing okay bud

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Iammesues

I can read this over and over. Thereโ€™s so much of my truth in these words

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