Haha!

“Happiness bubble popped again! There you are depression!”

“Where have you been the last few days it’s been so quiet without you my friend!”

I was suspicious for a reason. Mind feels like fucking play doh today.

But thanks to the combined courage from good people such as yourselves I will fight today!

I’m going to gym because if I don’t self care and release that tension I will be in the ground. I personally cannot survive life without feeling like I’m physically strong enough to carry my tired mind through the wake hours.

Have a blessed day in your fight today friends

[Hoping4change]

Oh no! That was too quick!

I’m glad you have the motivation to go to the gym though. I’ve been trying to make it out of the house for a few days but haven’t yet. Hiking makes me feel so much better but just getting in the car and driving there is tough. You’d think it would be so easy. But it’s not. I’m determined to make it out today. Thank you for the inspiration.

[Hoping4change]

Thanks for the song reference. I don’t know if I ever related to it in that way. Going to listen to it now. I love that song.

[LoveBear]

Sorry - it stinks and I definitely understand. I was good even great for a month and was feeling like I can put this behind me but nope it’s back. They’re changing meds and now I’m a zombie - so tired

[Hoping4change in reply to LoveBear]

Med side effects are the worst. I just realized this am that part of my lack of energy this week might be a side effect of a new med for my psoriatic arthritis. (I found out last year that I have this too and started on a new immunosuppressant). But it makes me feel a little better knowing that it’s not all in my head and that there are physical reasons. I know depression is a reason but usually I can force myself into doing things— not so much this week though.

[Hidden in reply to LoveBear]

I’m on med search too 🤬🤬

[Hoping4change]

I know. And I think only those who have experienced depression can understand that. To most I think it just looks like laziness. And honestly, the negative talk I tell myself is that it is laziness too. (Which definitely is not helpful). It sucks.

[Hidden]

Yeah.."depression"..gift that keeps on giving,grrr,😆😣😯

Good idea to go to the gym...

For me..its music..super freakin loud.

Best to u my friend

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

The gym while listening to music super freakin loud!!!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thats the way u do it.

[Hidden]

At least the riffs are catchy

[Hoping4change]

Lol you’re too kind! I’d say 1 week at least!

[Hoping4change]

Right! Because that works!! Lol

[Hidden]

Get your splif on, then get your lift on! 💪

Get your bowl on, and get your swole on! 💪

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Mmm hmmm...

Right there dialed in...

You know the drill

[Hidden]

Or “everybody goes through that!”

“It’s normal!”

Have you tried yoga?! Or breathing?!?!

[Hoping4change in reply to Hidden]

Haha “chin up!” I do yoga when I have the energy or motivation to go to classes but I’m not good at doing it at home. And I downloaded the insight app and have been trying out meditations which include mindfulness and deep breathing. It helps just to get my mind off of other things but not the actual depression so much.

[Hidden in reply to Hoping4change]

Exactly and that’s why I blow a sensi breeze

[Hoping4change in reply to Hidden]

What is a sensi breeze? I looked it up but only see a song reference. Hmm

[Hidden in reply to Hoping4change]

Cannabis haha

[Hoping4change]

Lol it’s soo easy! Or maybe “you shouldn’t sleep so much.” My sister told me I shouldn’t nap bc she saw it on the morning show... (meanwhile she doesn’t go to sleep til 5am drinking and watching soaps and sleeps til noon). No problem with that! But I think I won’t listen to her advice. She is absolutely NO help as one of the reasons I have the issues I do. Thank you, next!

[Hoping4change]

Ok. I take it back. That song has been stuck in my head all day! Just that one verse. Ughh. I’m no longer a fan.

[Hoping4change]

Ughh I’m sorry. There is such a lack of understanding and/or willingness to acknowledge mental health disorders. I think a lot if it comes from their fear of being seen as the cause. My grandfather wanted nothing to do with it. And my mother doesn’t understand it and chooses to ignore it. When I mentioned that I had PTSD which is why I had a script for MJ, she was so surprised! She said, “oh! Why? What happened?!” Completely frickin clueless that her neglect and failure to correct the constant abuse by my sister are the causes. And if I told her, she would deny it or invalidate it. I’ve thought about telling her but in addition to crushing her, I’d be afraid that she would try to minimize what happened to me. TMI maybe but this is anonymous so I feel like I can say things I would NEVER tell most people. Especially strangers.

I’m sorry you’re blue. It sucks to not have your feelings (and depression) validated. It’s no use trying to get it from those who deny it, don’t get it, or make you feel bad for experiencing it.

Hopefully talking here will help. I’ve been in support groups before and It makes such a difference talking with those who can relate.

[florapeace]

I am going to take your unintentional advice and go for a run today..hopefully that helps my brain as much as I need it to.

[Hidden in reply to florapeace]

Yes!!!! I have def had some days where I just pop tunes in the headphones and move until the sadness is even too tired to keep going!

Go git it today florapeace!!

Fight back swords up!!