I just wanted to say more to myself than to you.
Body image is something that always been one of the many demons, it wasn't because i grew up thinking that you'd have to be a certain weight to be liked or seen as beautiful.
Its because i'd never treated or given my body a chance to be what it wanted or needed. It was because from a young age, i was bullied for my appearance and not my mind. Fighting to accept that my body will never be what my 'delusional' mind thought it should look like.
With the last 2 years, my body has been going through changes that again, i struggle to accept. I'll laugh off the noticeable changes because thats all you can do, isn't it? Laugh.
But on the inside my self-hatred just grew bigger, with the pressures to hide the changes.
I saw this quote today;
Me to my body: I have been fighting for you all my life.
Not as many of you know, but coming into this world wasn't easy - as a prem baby - my body gave its hardest to try and breathe on its own without life support.
And so the quote that my body has been fighting for me all my life is only half true....Because i have been fighting against my body for many years. Instead of just accepting it with its beauty or flaws.
Losing weight - It was never good enough. Because i still had that mind process of Self- hate.
But i am enough.
My body is enough.
Im here breathing - not the healthiest but breathing still.
And for today, i am greatful.
Because they bullied me for what i looked like - not for what was ever in my mind.
You are enough just as you are.
What does it mean to feel like you are enough?
Laughter is spiritual health. ❤️☀️☮️🌸🌈🧘🏻♀️🕉🙏
