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[thepassionateflower]

i’m out of options. i can’t seem to do anything to make myself feel better. it’s so much bigger than just dealing with my gut-wrenching breakup. i literally feel so miserable and discontent with every aspect of my life that i don’t know why God even created me. what purpose do i serve.

it’s getting so bad that i don’t fall asleep till around 4 am every night and i sleep until 2, or at least about a half an hour before i have to go to work. i don’t care about anything that i used to: self-care, reading, exercising, being with friends and family...none of my hobbies bring me joy either. i don’t even brush my teeth everyday anymore. isn’t that gross? but i just don’t care about anything anymore. not a thing.

[teal247]

I can imagine what you're going through. Break-ups are never easy as they trigger memories, blame and hurt. I know how much the relationship meant to you. But at this time, none of that is important, what is important is you. Do not ever forget that you are important and there are people who love you and will continue to love you no matter what.

I know how difficult self-care can be at times especially when you feel depressed and the covid situation makes it worse. I suggest venting it all out, either through journaling, exercising or whatever else you enjoy. I know you mentioned none of the things that you used to do bring you joy. But just know this is just a phase and this will pass. Allow yourself some compassion to deal with things. I've also been through that phase so I understand how you feel. For now, make a routine for yourself- have a fixed time to get out of bed, a fixed time to eat and get on with the day. If you are a spiritual person, listen to some talks. If not, listen to some motivational stuff. I used to listen to them while I was in bed and that made falling asleep easier. Hope that helps. My best wishes are with you.

Hugs.

[thepassionateflower in reply to teal247]

i’m getting a little scared that it will be this way for a long time. i’m tired of faking that i’m okay.

[Hidden]

Maybe a good naturopathic doctor could help? I hope you feel good soon.

[Hidden]

Hi, I feel for what you're going through, I can get the same way sometimes. At least try to take care of yourself. Do the Nike Just do it philosophy. It's important to brush your teeth and take regular showers and try to eat properly. Just take small steps, don't try to take on more than is reasonable for you right now.

[thepassionateflower in reply to Hidden]

i can’t even describe how i’m feeling. just, so not good.

[Purrsona]

I don't know if you're looking for advice or just need to let it out, but hopefully you won't mind if I suggest you focus on the very basics: trying to normalize your sleeping patterns, showering, brushing your teeth, eating enough, etc. This was some of the best advice I got after my extremely bad break-up. Don't pressure yourself to feel or seem normal--taking care of yourself is your most important job.

I'm really sorry you're feeling so awful. As teal247 says, it'll pass, it really will. You'll be able to enjoy things again, I promise. <3

[thepassionateflower in reply to Purrsona]

thank you so much for everything you just wrote 🤍 everyone is so kind and understanding on here, i just love it.

i feel like it’s not all about my breakup, i don’t know what else it is but whatever it is feels like it’s slowly drowning me.

[Purrsona in reply to thepassionateflower]

I hear you. The thing about depression--at least for me--is that when something bad happens, it opens up everything bad I've ever thought or felt about myself. It helps me to remember that it's a medical condition and not my fault that I have these incapacitating feelings. I really hope you can get the care and peace you deserve.