why do I need so much help?

[DrowUhWey]

I feel like I'm asking for something that can't be done. What I really need is someone to be here with me to hold my hand through this pain. The people around me keep telling me I have to hold my own hand and then someone will magically appear to live with me. It feels so counterintuitive. I want to feel that genuine human connection. I'm so tired of being alone.

[Aspetta]

Do u go to school?

[DrowUhWey in reply to Aspetta]

no, I tried but I found it to be too stressful.

[purplepower82]

I understand exactly how you feel. I have basically been really alone for 2 years, and not had a significant other for 12 years. I never expected my life to end up like this. It's hard because I am a very compassionate, physical type of person . When someone needs a hug, I am there for them, but when I need a hug, I have to ask for one. I cry in front of a close family member, and I STILL have to ask for a hug, even though they know I need the physical support. It's hard for people like you and me. We crave physical affection (hugs, hand holding). I miss having someone to share things with and put my head on their shoulder when just sitting there watching tv. I know how horrible the loneliness feels. I just want someone to hold me .

The people telling you that you need to hold your own hand, have obviously never been without physical contact. If you need to talk, I am here.

[DrowUhWey in reply to purplepower82]

thank you for sharing your experience, it helps to know I'm not the only one that feels this way.

[purplepower82 in reply to DrowUhWey]

you are very welcome. Anytime

[Puzzler1501]

what you're longing for doesn't sound unreasonable or undoable at all. That being said, I have no idea how to logistically make that happen for you. I guess the point I'm trying to make is that I completely understand what you're looking for and what could help and comfort you. Because you can't see right now how that can happen doesn't make that need any less important and understandable. Do you find comfort in connecting with caring people in other ways? For example, reaching out for support, comfort and encouragement on this site? I'm a very good listener and have a great deal of compassion and empathy. If connecting and "talking" to people through this avenue may be helpful, my ears and my heart are wide open.😊