Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt

[Starrlight]

I know that’s not realistic life. But I get these glimpses of heaven on earth and then plunge into a downward spiral of torture. Maybe it’s bipolar or maybe this is normal. I don’t even know. Does anyone relate?

[Hidden]

You want heaven on earth, you have to disconnect from man made pressures and get out into nature, get grounded and reconnect with your one true self.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Nature is it. Actually going out to a new nature spot this evening. Do you have many good nature places where you live?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Yes Fl is full of nature

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Awesome!

[Starrlight]

Having a great day so far. Got a lot accomplished. How is your day going?

[Ddorne]

Starrlight, I can relate. Thinking that things are better and then waking up with suicidal thoughts. Why I just don’t know. It could be an obsessive thought that scares me and I keep thinking about it. I have OCD and have for most my life. Praying does help. I just don’t want to be so scared.

[Starrlight in reply to Ddorne]

I hear you. Me too I get suicidal or at least ocd makes me think about it repeatedly. I just don’t know anymore. Life is tiring me out. Actually I’m scared yet tired out. Tired of being so wrong. I feel so wrong. This morning I was brave and not so bad off and now I want help but I can’t think of much that would help. I’m so done!!! ✅ I hope you will be feeling better soon.

[Ddorne]

Thank you so much!