Help Me Please.

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

Hi I hope all of you are safe and well as well as your family’s. As many of you who follow me know my father passed away and my brother has been very unsupportive and just down right neglectful. His girlfriend who has moved in straight after my fathers death ignored me acts like I don’t even exists doesn’t talk to me for days on end and has blocked me on social media. They spend a lot of time together and he just leaves me at home alone all the time or at least most of it! I have been doing more recently but due to the current heat wave and uptick in cases I’ve been staying in more. I’m just worried that this whole situation is going to make me snap and I worry that I’m going to become a serial killer or something like I’ve been lying and faking about who I am like wanting to be a comedian like I forced myself to be something I’m not and I don’t know why I’m thinking and feeling these things can anyone help?

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Anxiety?

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Sorry about your situation

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Ya. Talking is very good. I feel.

[Agora1]

Hi Meyer, and so the situation stays the same I gather.

I don't think you'd become a serial killer but I can understand

how this lockdown and fear of going out can play hard on your

mind and emotions.

This is one of those times that we have to realize that we have no

control over the Pandemic and so we must adjust our reaction to it.

Hopefully, one day down the road, we will be able to talk about the

days we lived through Covid19 and how we survived.

Maybe you could start a journal of what it's been like for you. Expressing

your feelings and emotions on paper sometimes helps rid yourself of your inner

tension and stress.

Also, think about the hundreds of thousands who suffered and perished during this

time, who would have given anything to have a little more time in life. We are the

fortunate ones right now....don't give up. You are already an Anxiety Warrior, I have

faith in you that you can make it through this as well. xx

[ryelee]

Sounds like there may be some legal aspects to this situation. I think you should consult with a lawyer. If this is a financial hardship I think there are sources of free legal advice, depending on your circumstances.

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I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. I also know what it's like to lose a dad. It's almost like people around you see you drowning, but won't reach out a hand to save you. At the same time they're sympathetic. Your brother's girlfriend blocking you is a bit strange, do you feel as if she had a good reason for it? You'll come to realize that it's not normal for people in your life to neglect you like this (unless they're busy, etc) but not in a time where you are mentally ill in any way if that's the case. I don't have much friends in my life because I have my own issues, however, when I put more energy towards people that are enthusiastic about me and my life then it feels right and I start questioning why I ever worried about my the people who were too busy to notice I needed them, at least I needed just a little bit of effort and they were not offering that support.