Help me please!

[Inneedofcalm]

Started on a journey to wellness about a few months back and in just that short time I feel as if Ive been in hell. I started taking meds for hypertension only to see it escalate to the point of being uncontrollable. My behaviour changed and depression ensued. Today I am a quivering and sick mess. Despite many attempts to control my pressure throught different combinations all that has changed is my mind. Im constantly on the internet looking at and comparing symptoms and worrying about having another stroke or even dying. There is so much stressing me right now that Ive become suicidal. I need help really badly and a compassionate ear.

[Agora1]

Welcome to this forum. It is unlike any others in that you will always find us to

be compassionate and caring. We can be here to listen, to share and to comfort.

You are not alone. I too am on b/p medication which didn't come easily at first.

It takes time to adjust and find not only the right med, but the right dose and yes,

even the right time of day in taking it can make a world of difference.

Looking on the internet is not a good idea. It only helps in confusing you and bringing

up your doubt and fears more. Your doctors know your case history and weigh all

the facts before prescribing what they feel best for you.

No matter what is going on around you, you do know that you need to calm down

your thoughts for your own sanity and health issues. We are here for just that.

To walk the walk and talk the talk with you. I'm so glad you are here. xx

[Inneedofcalm in reply to Agora1]

Thank you soooo very much for responding! I appreciate you!! My biggest desire is to get better so I can return the kindness and support! There are so many people suffering in silence. I already am redisposed to depression from childhood on and never had ongoing help or treatment. Want to encourage others one day to seek help. Again thank you...you may have saved my life!

[Agora1 in reply to Inneedofcalm]

You are so welcome my dear. I too had gone through a rough patch

when I became Agoraphobic for 5 years. I always knew I would beat

it and when I did, I promised to pay it forward to help others on this

journey called life. 7 years later, here I am, meeting you and other

wonderful people on this site.

This will be you soon. It's people like yourself that make this forum so

amazing. xx

[Inneedofcalm in reply to Agora1]

Thanks for sharing that with me! If you ever have time I would love to hear how you triumphed! What things did you do to beat that demon cause I feel like Im in the fight of my life. The depression, morbid thoughts and physical illness is too much to bear. My faith in God is holding me together but that has suffered too at this point.

[argh52 in reply to Inneedofcalm]

One of the things that is so great about the community is that no matter how down I am, I can always find a good thing to say here, and sending that positive energy out there onto the internet makes me feel better.

Welcome. Be strong.

[marheart in reply to argh52]

Wonderful positive attitude! Keep up the good work.

[Inneedofcalm in reply to marheart]

Thank you for your kind words!!

[Inneedofcalm in reply to argh52]

Thank you!! This day turned out to be such a blessing! I value you! Many blessings to you!

[marheart in reply to Inneedofcalm]

Have a calm tomorrow too! Express gratitude for all the good times, even if they are only for minutes and not days. Tell you subconscious mind that you appreciate the calm. It will grow with every display of calm in your life. It's working for me.

[Desertgigi]

I can relate to how you feel...I have a medical condition that up until recently required constant hospitalization. It literally can be crippling. Talking about it is a huge step and chatting with others. I learned quickly my medical and physical health had to be stable to keep my mental health in check as well. Be honest with your doctor.

[Inneedofcalm in reply to Desertgigi]

Thanks honey! I appreciate your response and encouragement!! I will pray for you!

[Desertgigi in reply to Inneedofcalm]

Thank you....I will do the same! I hope you are doing well!