what if I were normal?

[WiltedFlower]

Every morning I wake-up, I

take my pills with a glass of water

and hope that today will be better

I slither into a hoodie

and get on my server to

play the part of a life

that isn’t mine

when the clock ticks without me

noticing, I realize

I’ve been empty all day, minus

a gut feeling that I’m dead,

or I should be

I think I’ve wasted a year

of my time

where I could have

been alive,

I could have felt alive

If only I did not message you

the morning I woke-up,

every day

for 10 months

until we broke up

maybe I wouldn’t have realized

I wanted to take 3 steps

out onto the pavement

in front of a

ruby-red Sudan

maybe my depression wouldn’t

have given me

a surprise party

maybe every morning I could wake-up

with a yawn

and a few multi-vitamins

like every healthy person.

I thought i'd share that.

[WiltedFlower]

also the formatting is weird and you can't really tell when there is a new stanza so sorry if it's a little difficult to interpret.

[TailWags]

i was just wondering myself earlier how much easier things would be without depression and anxiety. But maybe it is like it adds more volume, or depth to life? Not sure if it is worth it. Or maybe it grows hair on your chest. None of us will need a jacket in winter.

[WiltedFlower in reply to TailWags]

haha, i love that way of thinking it. maybe that will explain why i enjoy wearing bathing suits in the snow and diving in 😂

[NellieK]

Love the presentation -- you are very talented! Funny thing is that I don't believe anyone is really "normal," whatever that means -- we all have issues. That is what makes us human.

[WiltedFlower in reply to NellieK]

yeah, thats true. I just wish i wasn't carrying an extra burden