Adult Children Adding to Depression

Anyone here who has adult children adding to their anxiety, depression and giving you self doubt as a parent? I have 2 adult daughters. One who is 26, and had my wonderful granddaughter 3 years ago, and the other is 20, who I just had to kick out of my house. I am seriously depressed right now about my 20 year old. She has been in and out of trouble since 17, and no amount of support, understanding and talking to her does any good. I finally reached my limit when she got fired from her last job, which lasted 2 weeks. She got fired for not showing up. I told her she had to keep a job to live at home, because she is not going to school anymore. Her interests revolve around getting high, sleeping and socializing. She also has a sugar daddy who gives her anything she wants. She has been fired from every job she's had. She's on her 5th car. This last one her sugar daddy bought for her, and 2 days after having it, it already has a messed bumper. I can go on and on. My oldest has panic attacks, is on meds, and has changed meds I don't know how many times. This (supposedly) prevents her from holding a job. Although she has held jobs before and driven there. However, she refuses to drive to my house and come to family gatherings. She will come for Christmas time though since her boyfriend will take her during Christmas time. My guess is because of the gifts. I am making this too long of a post probably, but does anyone else have issues like this? Does it further make you depressed on top of being depressed to the begin with?!

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Yes!!!! Hi and again, YES!!!! I am not a naturally depressed person, I used to wake up with excitement and enthusiasm every day but as the years went on and all my efforts with my family flopped over and spit, I started to go downhill. After all, if you spend the majority of your adult life ferrying kids here and there, cooking, cleaning, working, putting on birthdays, holidays, sacrificing any possibility for your own wardrobe in order to buy kids the things they want as teens and then watch helplessly and hopelessly as addictions, poor choice of friends, the culture, and learning disabilities prevent your kids and family life from being much more than an ongoing hayride from hell which you must, out of necessity, remain responsible for with no positive end in sight and then Covid hits...SCREAM!!! I am making every day working on my mental health my priority right now until quarantine is over and then I may choose to make some entirely new life choices. Good Luck, stay strong, most likely you have done your best but the odds are against us with everything that is happening to be happy skippy singing "zippy do da" every day. I am trying to count my blessings and pray, pray, pray...