Hi.
Long time anxiety sufferer here. Probably have some level of GAD. I tried meds, they somewhat work but it's not a long term fix. I am looking for some CBT or other resources.
My story, if you are bored/curious:
My anxiety is likely part genetic and part background. My parents went through two very tough immigrations, lots of fights about money. They were extremely hard on me in terms of getting a good education and having "stability", likely due to their own experiences. They were extremely critical and judging in many of my interactions with them. I developed a severe anxiety reactions to not doing well enough at school, or spending excess money. One story I remember is being so stressed about going to school in the first grade that I constantly threw up beforehand.
Later in life I had severe anxiety about every test or exam I ever wrote. Bad grades would often cause tantrums. I became a perfectionist over time. With constant anxiety and additional family pressure, I did a PhD. My supervisor ended up being a terrible human being who used stress and pressure and fear of never graduating to make us work ridiculous hours, and often dangerous experiments. I remember spending many nights in my studio apartment on the floor in tears and with a bottle of vodka. Before graduation I had such a severe anxiety I started having digestive system problems, at least I think they're related.
Today I am employed, and I like my job, but the fear and anxiety around financial stability is often debilitating. I spent a year being obsessed with the idea that the IRS would come and take all my money away. I also had a chronic, extremely painful condition brought on by stress for about as much time.
Sometimes I'll be sitting at home and an intrusive thought will come in, and before I know it I get caught up in a fantasy where I end up being homeless on the street. Sometimes I feel very guilty and embarrassed because other people have more substantial problems, like cancer, or losing a loved one, whereas I'm indulging in some obscure fantasy that's filling me with debilitating fear.
This is what sucks about this condition. And I guess I understand how successful people like Anthony Bourdain, Kate Spade and other famous people end up the way they did. Seems like regardless of where you are socially or economically, you can still suffer, even if on the outside it looks like you should be "fine". Or maybe I'm just saying this to make myself less guilty.
Anyway, thanks for reading, and if you can suggest a good book on CBT, or perhaps a good book in general that changed your philosophical outlook on things, that would be appreciated (I do have a therapist that I see occasionally, he's given me some tools).
extreme fears that nobody else may understand
Never ending anxiety
No problem in the world that can't be overcome by the application of human thought.
Paxil quit working
Diazepam 
