Dysmorphia?

[Confused000]

I always felt ashamed when seeing myself in pictures. Most of the time I would never look at them because that would make me feel so bad and it would only accentuate my depression.

Still, I sometimes do take selfies and I do like the way I look in them but when deciding to post one I start feeling bad about myself again. For example I just posted a selfie that I took a couple of days ago on the close friends story and even though those are only my closest friends seeing, it still gave me huuge anxiety. I looked at the picture for at least 40 mins before posting it and after posting i just closed the app and can't bring myself to open it again now. ( I never post on social media, so posting this pic even on a private story is quite out of normal)

I love it when people tell me that I'm beautiful and I feel so sometimes when looking into the mirror but usually seing myself in pictures taken by others feels so bad. And others seeing pictures taken by me just makes my anxiety levels skyrocket.

I really try to love myself and I think that I've come quite far but this thing with pictures still makes me feel very low.

Felt the need to tell someone about this. Thank you for listening.

[enigmaticide]

I'm suddenly reminded of somethings MANY years back. A girlfriend at that time had a photo of some "guy", huge smile, arms thrown wide without a care in the world. Upon noticing, I'd asked, in complete sincerity, "Who's that?"

Taken aback, she replied, "That's you."

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I am the same way! Someone had told me the way we view ourselves negatively is not how others see us. I hope that helped.

Everyone is beautiful in their own way ❤️😍