Anxiety is depressing

[MateSpillin]

Ive been to the ER multiple times this year to look at my lungs and heart but everytime tests come back normal now ive got the urge to go back again because i feel like something is wrong how do you guys go on day by day without needing to check ????sometimes i break out in sweats , sometimes i feel my heart beating fast sometimes its really slow so it confuses me daily its so hard dealing with this and im only 21 ive lost all friends and havent been outside since December other than the hospital

[bobpollard]

Just remember that your body will do all sorts of things that you can't control and that aren't necessarily bad. We're living beings, each with our own rhythms and weirdnesses. Things like heart rate, sweating, etc. are usually very dependent on particular situations and you can't rely on them as cues for long term health. Lean into it: if you have that extra energy, go for a run. If you're sweating a lot, do some pushups! Let it work for you.

[creekgirl]

My sympathies, MateSpillin. I've got the same issues. Up until recently I thought I had conquered old problems with panic disorder. With this covid situation the old issues have come roaring back. When I chanced upon the essay "Finding Calm in the Middle of the Covid Storm" on the ADAA website, I was amazed to feel so understood:

adaa.org/learn-from-us/from...

Now I need to find a therapist who understands too! Do you have support, help, medications? You may feel alone, but there are others out there like you. I'm one, and my heart goes out to you!

[SushiMonster]

I am sorry you are suffering so much. But I can 100% relate. I've been to urgent care & cardiologists several times last month thinking I was having a heart attack. I'd wake up at 2am with a pulse of 120, sweating, anxious, flushed, needing to run, run, run away. Awful. All tests came back negative, but I still feel like something is off in my body. It is hard not to lose yourself in this spiral of feeling sick, & like something is wrong. Sometimes I'd wish I had a heart monitor at home. I am actually wearing one now for 2 weeks because I have palpitations that just won't go away. So I get it. Feeling physical symptoms is SCARY as heck. It makes your mind go to all sorts of scenarios. I am just trying to find peace with the fact that I've been checked several times & nothing seems to be off, so then I've done everything I can to check out my physical self, so now it is time to take care of my emotions & my mental health. I meditate. I b-r-e-a-t-h-e...... I read A LOT of light fiction or inspiring biographies, nothing scary or dark. I'm also on meds. But I'm starting therapy this week so I am hopeful that can rewire my brain as well. Our minds are complicated, so just try to be kind to your self. I find self-talk helps too. Talking to my inner self, the self that freaks out & panics, & just acknowledge what is happening & letting it be OK. I hope you can find some quiet and small moments of serenity in your days. Sending good energy your way!