Hello Everyone
This morning I woke up so fearful of being a prisoner in my mind and being on an institution because of my intrusive thought. I have always been an interesting guy. But now with having anxiety it takes the cake. First I struggled for years with unforgiveness issues, now anxiety. I know this is a pitty party. But I am just so scared about my future and constant barriers. Which I seem to have created.
You said it yourself. You created it. You can controll it. Try to controll it i know its hard i know its tough but you can do it! Try to feel something, feel free, take a deep breath of fresh air and just feel the air going into your lungs. Try to talk about it with your family or friends or a therapist. You need help, get help, get rid of your anxiety, and live a life you can actually enjoy. Thats what I always tell myself, i know its hard, keep going and don‘t give up!
I know but I am an idiot. How could I have done this to myself.
No you’re not never ever say that! You, me we are all mentally ill and we want to do something about it and thats so important. I know its hard i‘ve been there and i still am. It‘s okay to feel this way you are not weird or different it‘s just that your (or our) brain doesn’t work the way it should. It’s something in us, deep down that doesn‘t want us to live normally. Anxiety is a false alarm of our brains, which makes us think that we’re in danger, but we are not and thats scary, i know. But this is a illness and you can cure it. Get up do something that makes u happy! You deserve to live happily! Never ever forget that ok?
Thank you. I will try alot harder.
Hello I also suffer in this way, I was recently put on a med and starting with a therapist today. The mind is a very powerful thing and when you have anxiety it seems the mind can really take over scaring us! Get help for yourself because it's not your fault. I know I've always blamed myself for my problems with anxiety, I've been diagnosed with OCD where I get stuck on a thought and can't dismiss from my mind. It's very difficult. I know I'm no longer working so it's even harder. I wish you the best keep fighting for your mental health.
Your anxiety caused you to stop working?
No it wasn't my anxiety, I stopped working in 2017 due to rheumatoid arthritis. I was a Caregiver for over 9 years working with the elderly.
This is my biggest fear anxiety causes me to be disabled.
I meant causing me to be disabled and home bound because of my thoughts.
Thank you for your words. Sorry about your arthritis.
If you are not working how do you survive?
I am receiving disability for my RA (arthritis) I am also married and my husband has a good job. Thankfully
That is good. I wonder if I will need disability eventually. Health Anxiety is something.
I would say if your working try to keep it up. It's better to keep active and not have so much time on your hands. Have you tried talking to a mental health counselor, they understand the mind and can give you a lot of understanding about what's going on.
I starting my second session with a therapist this week. But you know what. I feel like I caused all of this from being lazy. Before COVID got heavy. I was doing alot of activities staying busy. Now I just work and on my days off I do nothing. So doing nothing caused me to over think, putting me in this hole.
Yes that's how I got here too. I got so overwhelmed with the COVID situation and all the restrictions that keep coming down and my anxiety kept increasing. So it's not our fault that is has happened to us, I know I tend to blame myself for everything, but I've always had anxiety. I was anxious as a kid.
Yes I will not try to blame myself COVID just happened. Back in April I got two panic attacks causes a chain of anxiety for me and ridiculous intrusive thoughts. These thoughts don't make no sense at all but I believe them.
You have a great day. Thank you for your support. My doctor is sending me information about good psychiatrists.
Find a good person to trust and talk too.
Did you say that I was bothering people on this site. Come on lady. I just wanted help from people who have mental health issues like me. Wow.
Which you the best!
You take care. God Bless.
Scared
I’m so scared. 
Panicking this morning
